What do you fight for?

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Ooooooo, you really have given me the opportunity to shine with this thread. hehehe.

Recently it has come to light, with the ignorance of one of my former friends (refer to the thread "HOW DO YOU ARGUE WITH THE IGNORANT") that I pride myself in being a lone warrior of freedom truth, and justice. But not just for myself. Not just for the person whom I am talking to. But for ALL people. I feel compelled to fight for equality, honesty, integrity, decency, logic, prudence and emotional strength.

I look around this world, and I despair in all the corruption and ignorance I see. Even amongst my friends, who some of them I thought were intellectual and wise. Regardless of the consequences, which have lately been me losing friends due to their inability to grasp my logic.

I have even found myself in situations where my will has been intentionally tampered with to suit the ends of other's ignorant wills. In said situations I feel the need to defend my mind and expose, fight and maybe correct the corruption and ignorance I face by letting my vioce be heard in any way I feel necessary, and as appropriate, however I find occasionally, unappropriate.

The tools and weapons I use in this solitary, and seemingly endless and relentless plight are the tools and weapons I have developed myself throughout my 25 years on this planet. My brain and it's abilities. That's why I have spent my youth exploring areas of research and reading dictionaries. Because I believe knowledge is power. And with that power I weild it to fight for what I believe is right. The events in my life have shaped me into the person I am today, however I believe that none of us will ever be complete. We are always learning, and always evolving, and therefore the courses of our lives and in turn the crosshairs of our mercy and richeousness will always be in fluctuation.

Thats one of the reasons I relate so much to the late Bill Hicks. Because I feel alone in my own war. Myself Vs. the NT world. Not that I feel alone here, on the contrary, this is one of the reasons I joined this site.

I am told on occasion that I have turned into a heartless a***hole who only cares about himself and that I "used to be such a nice guy". I personally disagree. Mainly due to my reasoning that a few years ago I used to be a doormat that would let anyone walk all over me because I was too consumed with pleasing ewveryone else that I allowed myself to become a casualty of everyone else's happiness and comfort.

But events of recent years have taught me the harsh lesson of life and I have developed a spine. Both figuratively and litterally for those of you who have seen my tattoo. (Refer to thread "Post a picture of the real you"). One of the main reasons that I got that tattoo is to remind me to maintain my figurative backbone. Plus due to my great respect and fascination with biology and anatomy the vertebral column to me is a symbol of strength and fortitude. Even the word "backbone" denotes strength and meaning. I think the 5 hours worth of pain in getting the tattoo is worth the years and tears of strength and self-respect I will be reminded to uphold.

Anyway I have carped on for long enough, I'll let you guys have a word in edgeways.

I want to prove my teachers, parents or anyone else that doubted I'd ever make anything of myself wrong.

I fight for the right to be safe, to be respected and most of all...just to be left alone. I fight for the right to have self-worth and dignity. I fight for the right to be free from prejudice and conformity with NT standards. I fight for the right to be free from ranking and ridicule and pack mentality.

I fight for the right to be who I am. And I will do whatever it takes to achieve that. With my sword and shield in hand I will fight.

And one of these days I will fight for the right to destroy the quarantine walls separating LFA children from adult Aspies and HFAs. Walls that have been erected by grieving parents who just can't stand that their LFA children will grow up to be LFA adults.

I will fight the idea of cure and I will fight the idea that we are "suffering" from autism. I will fight to make NTs understand that we suffer from the social system they cram down our throats every minute, every hour, every day of our lives.

I don't mind helping, pleasing, putting others wishes above my own comfort zone (it is the most difficult thing, to become disinterested). It is called being in relation and friendship. All religious traditions talk about the neighbour, that your acts become disinterested. There is, however, a difference between being a tool for someone else's pride (hence the need to have a fiery sense of justice) and the idea of trying to be there for everyone, regardless of your own circumstance. I wish i could reach that state, to empty myself, because for me it is not the person I am ultimately trying to please, but to do the will of God and to be oned in God. If you are trying to please and be the nice guy, to get something back (a smile, a pat on the back, a thank you) then it is not disinterested. With God it is All or Nothing.

i have fought for everything i do and everything i have. i am blessed with dogged perseverative tendencies - to the extreme. Nothing has come easy for me.

i also fight for lots of social justice issues.
i am probably considered quite radical in some of my views and i am unashamedly left-wing.

i like fighters.
fly like a butterfly and sting like a bee......