Does anyone claim you do 'it' on puprose?

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Melissa, I'm glad to hear from you because I had never met anyone who knew what I was talking about. I don't go about telling people my story because people usually can't believe it. You have to have lived it to believe it - the extents some will go to in order to not have to deal with the hardships of reality. However, I think they pay a price for it, same as we pay a price for not going along with whatever they demand we do in exchange for their "protection" from reality. I think, without going any further, the mere fact that they always have to choose their close ones based on how well those allow them to continue living in their shells, rather than choosing people who are interesting and have a kind heart, must be boring/frustrating/painful enough a price to pay. I know, for instance, that when my sister cut contact with me, she once called me back because she said the atmosphere at the family dinners was depressing without my spontaneity, my love of life, my genuine love for her kids, my original way of seeing things. That was 7 years ago, I haven't had contact with them in all this time, and I never will, come what may, and I sometimes think that it's their loss too.

Sorry if I went off-topic...

I never got the "doing it on purpose" line, but I always got the "what is wrong with you?" and the "So you think you're better than everybody else?" lines. I should note that I was not diagnosed until last year and the questions were mostly from my childhood.

yes.

i got the "whats wrong with you?" line as well not the doing it on purpose one. (when i was a kid)

When I was in high school, kids thought I never paid attention because I can't listen for long periods of the time and I also zone out and I miss words teachers say so my mind doesn't process it all so therefore, I wouldn't hear everything. I think it was ADD/Language processing disorder combination.

Some people have thought of me as being a smart ass for taking something literal and my office clerk thought I was lacking common sense back when I was working swing shift because I didn't read between the lines or connect the dots.

My father is convinced that I'm lazy and "being stupid on purpose". He's a moron; why would I deliberately make things difficult for myself?

Sora, your timing and phrasing could not have been more perfect.

Over the past few days I've been thinking about exactly this issue. Some people in my life have cast their doubt on the whole "AS thing". They seem to think that my issues are due to a simple lack of socialization when I was young, and a personal choice on my part to not care about other people. As if I could just "snap out of it" if I really wanted to. And I always tell them something like.... "yes, I'd love to snap out of it, but no matter how much I snap, it's still there!! !"

I have been accused of acting this way on purpose.

I will go on and on about how I never mean to be rude, or emotionally distant, or oddly-behaving. I restate my intentions and my inner thoughts, trying to counteract the undesirable appearance I tend to outwardly convey. It doesn't seem to do any good. Other people seem to have a hard time imagining that there is something neurological that makes me this way, when there are no other overt physical symptoms. They think that my way of being is completely chosen, and that I must be a totally self-centered jerk.

But I understand where they are coming from. They cannot read my mind. They can only interpret their perceptions of my outward words and actions. And those perceptions often betray the truth of the matter entirely.

Nope.

No. Most of my life people think I do and I don't. I was the youngest in my family and every one mostly thought I was cute. Then when I got older. "Your not little any more - stop acting like that." I wasn't putting on any act.

Yes I have...and even from at least one person on WP.
Someone saw my videos on YouTube and claimed that I was "acting like a freak" on purpose...slightly offended I was because I did not think I was acting like a freak and I was doing nothing more than being myself.

My NT younger sister used to accuse me of acting the way I did on purpose...she was perpetually embarrased by me.
A few other people....the first drummer of my old band was highly critical of every tiny thing about me...

People used to accuse me of using a fake accent...because I have always talked funny...etc....

what do you do?