Fickle_Pickle wrote:
That is, when I'm sober or clean.
That tells me quite a bit.
It is difficult for a parent to pinpoint who in a child's circle is the negative influence that is contributing to the habits. While I realize it is possible you are self-medicating because you find your parents unbearable, your parents are not going to grab at that as a possibility, for the obvious reasons. They are going to assume that somewhere in your social circle - outside of the immediate family - you are being enabled. Hence, they will work to rid you of that social circle. Given that discovering the real source could be impossible, they will make assumptions and pick and choose.
I hope that you are working with a qualified professional to get past these issues with addiction. That same professional would be the proper person to discuss your parent's feelings about your activities with.
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Mom to an amazing young adult AS son, plus an also amazing non-AS daughter. Most likely part of the "Broader Autism Phenotype" (some traits).