Psygirl6 wrote:
I have some of the characteristics especially in my 20's and somewhat now. But that did not happen til I was forced to live in a group home,where all of the things that i great at taking care of myself, was "controlled by other people. I was forced into learned helplessness, but at the same time, i was forced to do things and/or get in trouble if I did not show and/or have empathy, sympathy, and/or understanding to the other clients, especially if they were the ones who hurt me.
It is from being "controlled" , when I did not need it and at the same time having people around me lack understanding and be very mean to me where i just gave up.
To be more specific,
I would not have any confidence on doing things for myself, but at the same time I would not allow anyone to do these things for me. i would just neglect them. I do not allow myself to see other people's point's of view, since I do not have that skill anyway due to the Asperger's, but i was forced to but ignored it. This caused me a great deal of trouble, but I am an independent soul, especially when it comes to the way i take care of myself. the sad thing is these people's point's of views were always wrong and sometimes harmful, especially to my health. This is what lead them to get angry at me, accuse me of being defiant, even though I did nothing but calmly tell them that I do not need their assistance. But being in the group home, the agency is very "power hungry" and would do anything to keep people in line. I would never get angry and/or harm anyone, especially when I do get mad, I internalize it and take it out on myself.
26 May 2009, 8:41 am
