Have you ever wished to be NT .....even for once ?

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I have never desired to be NT, but I have and do desire to improve certain things about myself. I think it is a more healthy attitude to concentrate on improving yourself rather than wishing you were something that you are not and cannot be.

Not that I am trying to make anyone out as liars, but surely most people have wanted to be like 'the others' at least once in their lifetime? Even if it was ages ago and you were still at school. I know that in principle most people would like to be able to say no to this question but really... it does take a long time to get to that point, at least I know it will for me.

Enigmatic_Oddity -- that is a reasonable comment but the reason I have never desired to be NT is because I did not even know I was aspy until this year of my life, and also because for some reason, I never really thought about my difference. It just simply was not something I thought about. It is like someone asks me, "Why didn't you take the apple?" And my reply is, "It never occurred to me to take the apple". Similarly, you are asking, "Why didn't you want to be NT?" And my reply is, "It never occurred to me".

But you never looked at yourself and said, 'I'm a freak, I wish I wasn't?', or 'I wish I wasn't the way I am?'

I agree with emp. I never liked other people (when I was younger) because almost all of them seemed stupid to me. (read: they didn't seem to make sense) It never occured to me that the odd man out was ME not THEM but even so, I still don't want to be like others.

I do not recall ever thinking such a thing. (Other than wanting to improve things about myself from time to time.)


I did not think others to be stupid or nonsensical. It was more a case of little or no thinking about them. Disinterest. In other words, like classical autism. "autism" is from the Greek word "autos" meaning "self", describing the fact that autistic children tend to lack interest in other people. I had lack of interest in other people (altho' not complete disinterest), and thus lack of comparison of myself to other people, and thus lack of dwelling on my differences.

I had a couple of friends in primary school (elementary school / grade school) and I liked them, but if I had zero friends, I probably would not have even noticed -- too absorbed in my own things. Or maybe I would have noticed but not paid much attention to it.

I would really love to see several hours of footage of me in primary school, including break/lunch times. That would be fascinating to view from an aspergers / autistic viewpoint.

To want to be different would sever me from who I really am. I can't even imagine it. Makes me kind of sick to even try and think about it! I could never write those essays in school where you were supposed to write about "who you would rather be". Duh. That's just so wrong it is sickening.

No, but I've wondered what I'd be like if I was an NT. But then I can never picture it because I've always been this way and I can only think of what I'd do as an Aspy. ^^U


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'We are the spectators of life. Seeing, but never seen. Hearing but never heard.' -Elsbeth

I've been having that wish, all day long, in fact. I was wishing to be NT, just so I could demonstrate to them, just how Un-Polished their Grammar is. On the other hand, I'm glad that my Accent keeps me from talking like a cheap Valley Girl.

I was honest and voted yes.

When I was younger I would have liked to 'fit in' and escape the teasing. My differences made me very unhappy then. Now, I no longer want to be neurologically normal.

I continue to work on the areas that give me difficulty; but if there was a 'cure' for this I would not take it.

i probably have wished it but i don't remember to many times. Maybe when i'm mad or upset. Most of the time i wouldn't want to just because i would not have the same mind. I mean i would like to be like an NT in certain ways no more anxiety, quiet nights, understanding jokes and sarcasm, being abe to stand camera flashes... but there are more good things than bad. my memory, my imagination, easily entertained, not having to study too much (this is a big +)... When people make fun of me i wish i where a little more 'normal', but later i realize that its their problem, not mine and i shoudn't have to think the same as everyone else to be treated decently.

I have felt this way, but I don't anymore because I am so proud to be an AS person

Well, I get very frustraded by the fact that I can't deal with people or get them understand me, but for some reason I haven't wished to be an NT, in fact, I have never wished to be (internally) any other but me, it's weird, but it's like this...

I can remember crying when I was 8 years old because I knew I was different and somehow felt that I would never be able to enter a relationship.

I have a suspicion that I may have actually been an EXTREMELY attractive boy (I could be wrong but it seems very likely) in primary school but girls only secreltly liked me because I got picked on so much and the few times I talked to them I made all the wrong moves and said the wrong things. In highschool it was very similar but I had big problems with acne (so wasn't as good looking anymore) and self-esteem problems.

When I looked in the mirror I thought my acne made me hidious but looking back at photos I didn't look that bad at all.

Anyway when I told people I had never been in a relationship they thought it was weird and that I might be gay or something. I didn't enter my first relationship until I was about 21.
Now that I'm 25 and I know how to pull NT chicks i've been in a quite few relationships and actually found that I prefer to be single. I would love to date an Aspie girl sometime though.

So yeah I've wished I could be an NT before but only so because I thought it would make it easier for me to find a girlfriend. If I was an NT i'd probably be married with a semi-stable job, a mortgage and a first born on the way by now.

As as Aspie I may get to live my dream of developing anti-aging technology and one day get to explore other solar systems.

I hope eventually it's going to change, but right now, yes, every single day.

When I know people well and am comfortable with them I relate to them just as well as any NT would except I am more trust worthy, reliable and honest.