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Are you attracted to the lifestyle of a wanderer?
i am not sure what you mean by "wanderer". do you mean the life of a "nomad", or the life of an "explorer"?
i definitely do not want to be a nomad. i must have a permanent home that is mine where i live and am based. i do not want to go on holidays much because my pets are wild animals that i can not take with me or get anyone else to look after (at this time).
i feel a tome building in my head, and i must struggle to be concise in my reply....
up until 8 months ago, i lived in an idyllic location in virgin bushland with no neighbors, and i had possums and kookaburras and a menagerie of wild birds and bush mice etc that all visited me every day and they were my surrogate pets. i was in a kind of paradise and i only went out to go to the shops. it was so quiet and peaceful and i used to go and sit on my back veranda every day at dusk, and my animals all came to me and i fed them and i was in my version of heaven.
when i had to travel away for a few days, i felt very homesick, and i could only think about my animals coming to my house and finding it vacant, and i wanted badly to return to them as soon as possible.
then the local government (council) planned a road to be built right through my house, and they reclaimed the land and payed me market value for my house and i had to go.
i was devastated. i also have another large house, but it is in an area with no wild animals, and there are houses and highways all around it, and i did not want to go back there, so i continued to let my niece live there.
i found a place to rent (temporarily) that is a few minutes drive from my animals, and i go out every night back to the land beside my old house to see them and feed them. i know it sounds insane, but i can not abandon them for any reason at all.
i had to relinquish my relationship with the kookaburras and other wild birds because they do not come out at night, but the possums and mice are nocturnal, and they have learned where i always go at night now, and they come and see me there and i pet them and love them and feed them.
when the possums and mice die, i will have no gripping reason to stay in this area, and i will buy another house outside of sydney on about 20 acres of land that is in virgin bushland where no roads will ever be planned to be built.
then i will live there until i die, and i will have a new set of animal friends (i will always miss the animals i had until 8 months ago at my then house though).
i have a friend called sonia who i will ask to live at my house and care for my animals while i go and explore the world in short bursts.
i would very much like to explore the bushland in all the countries of the world, and i am slightly adventurous in that i find it mesmerizing to walk through the wilderness of different lands and sit and contemplate the nature of the places that i discover.
anyway, i am adventurous to a mild degree, and i find it exhilarating to sit and absorb the smells and life of exotic places, but i always need to know i will return home to my primal base.
i think the longest i could spend away from my home is about 2 months.
eventually, when i get old and rickety, i will stay in my house that i am secure in the knowledge that will never be taken away from me, and i will know that there is no place like home.
to be a nomad with no home is something i fear.
tonight i am almost incapable of communication so this is all i have to feebly say