It's not uncommon for me to be confused when learning something intellectually new,especially conceptual ideas like mathematics,where I see other people fully grasping the concept in a linear and orderly manner,like everyone else is speaking an alien language.And I just have no idea why I'm not "getting it".And then,after living with the mystery for some time,I will one day realize that I suddenly and completely "get it" in epiphany,like the answer was under my nose the entire time.Sometimes it takes days,sometimes years,but this happens often.In grade school I tested fairly evenly across the Stanford-Binet,with a very respectable IQ,but my academic life would indicate I was a slacker or a dolt.Aside from a bit of dyslexia,I've never been able to understand why/how I learn differently than others seem to.I tested "negative" for ADD,and there are no other obvious clinical explanations.I tend to blame some linguistic processing error,but who knows?Regardless,it's really spooked me away from pursuing intellectual work I think I'd otherwise find fulfilling.