gallimaufry wrote:
I am 35-years-old and my biological clock is ticking. I would like to have children, to have my own family, but I often have doubts as to whether or not I could really handle it. I don't know if I have the energy, if I could handle the sleep deprivation, not having my quiet time alone that I need when I get home from work, the unpredictable nature of children, and the noise.
Exactly my fears. (although I'm a 38 yo male)
Now I'm more accepting towards kids and toddlers than I used to be probably due to better knowing and accepting myself and them too since I first came across AS, and being somewhat wiser and more experienced than before.
One of my major dreams is that I'll have kids in the near future, so I grab every occasion I can practice being with kids, playing with them, tolerating, comforting and protecting them. So, will I do everything to their proper upbringing?

I don't know, I share the above doubts. I can tolerate their crying and screaming to a degree, but I don't know what I would do when I get it in large quantities, restrained from sleep, alone time, interests, hobbies and even friends...
When I play with my cousin's children (one is 1.5 yo, the other is 5 yo), I'm like a 3rd child with more experience (an physical power too). Some mentioned here on WP that it is necessary to "baby talk", to show authority to them. I don't know how to do it, I talk to them without affecting my voice or words. I hope they'll be ok with it.
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Another non-English speaking - DX'd at age 38
"Aut viam inveniam aut faciam." (Hannibal) - Latin for "I'll either find a way or make one."