Are you really messed up in the head beyond aspergers?

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There is something that worries me. I will probably be reavaluated in a couple of months time and I'm afraid that my present diagnosis will be reversed into classical autism. I don't know why that scares me so much but it does.

Other than that I'm fine.

I think most aspies have more then just aspergers, it comes with the territory. But on the other-hand, for some of you, the amount of self-diagnosis you are giving yourself is ridiculous. Especially all the people who claim to have 8 or 9 things and half of them are self-diagnosis, you've been reading waay too much into the dsm or on different conditions. I do admit, I've been guilty of self-diagnosis as well, only OCD tho.
Here's a full list of all the diagnosis Ive had thru my lifetime:

Former
Selective Mutism- had between 8 and 17
Depression- had between 17 and 22

Present
Social Anxiety- had since 8 to the present : never officially diagnosed, but every psych has agreed with me that I had it
Asperger's - lifetime duh....
Mild Learning Disorder: affects spelling, grammar, my use of language and language learning, I do not have a speech delay: lifetime
OCD: since 14- this one is 100% self-suspect cause its highly debatable on how you would define OCD, its like 95% O and perhaps only 5% C. When I was younger my compulsions were a worse and drove people crazy but I identified them as problematic and spent 4 yrs minimizing them. Unfortunately I've only identified my obsessions as problematic too.

Beyond Asperger's I've been diagnosed with social anxiety, though doubt that I still meet the diagnosis criteria. It was developed because of being bullied in elementary and middle school, but good high school and college experiences helped a lot.

I haven't been diagnosed with, but identify with reactive depression. I've been fighting with extreme bouts of hopelessness, wondering why people don't care about me, not feeling like life can ever get better, and such, since I was abused while at my weakest point emotionally in my life (3 grandparents died in a period of 8 months, the abuse started after the first of those, and got far worse after the later deaths). However, this is complicated because my depression is partially defined by how far it is from where I was (incredibly optimistic), rather than where the average person is. I'm not far worse than the average person according to my Asperger's evaluation, which only scares me terribly, because it makes me feel more hopeless. I don't think the questions they asked were able to identify my depression at all correctly, because they appeared to all be about depression in a pessimistic self-loathing person, not someone who had been optimistic and is dealing with hopelessness and terrible self-esteem but not actually self-hatred.

If we're including things like dyspraxia, I'm pretty sure, but not positive that I was diagnosed with dyspraxia of speech when I was young - I went through almost a decade of speech therapy as a child. I also have hilarious issues with hand-eye coordination beyond just being clumsy. I don't associate this with the question at all however.

It feels like in a few years I'll only have Asperger's again. I'm working on my depression and it feels like it can go away, and my social anxiety has been shrunk down to a fear of phones and fear of asking for help already.

I don't feel messed up in the long-run, I do in the short term. I feel like my depression is something that I need to fight through and that it is messing me up, though even my Asperger's isn't anything to do with me being "messed in the head".

I've been officially diagnosed with:

Asperger's
OCD (I know it's not part of my AS because it's the "stereotypical" fear of germs along with a fear of accidentally poisoning myself, and compulsive handwashing, changing clothes and spitting out saliva out of fear of contamination)
Generalized Anxiety Disorder
Depression

I'm also on different medications for all of these things, which has been a miracle because of how effective they are at keeping my symptoms under control.

The autism specialist who I went to for an evaluation said that even if I hadn't been born with AS, I would still have the same mental illnesses because there is such a strong history of it in my family.

Besides AS I've also got ADHD. Having saif that, even though I have problems around executive funtioning, I'm not "really messed up in the head".

Recurrent major depression, PTSD, GAD, ADHD.
I've got a weird brain.

BTW, I don't "use positive thinking as a coping strategy" so much as just truly not considering having mental illnesses to be "messed up".

First of all, nearly half the world will have a mental illness sometime during their lives. Most of these will be minor; but that statistic does mean that mental illness is not unusual. It's part of the human experience, not something alien to our world.

Second, everybody has problems. Some people have relationship issues; some people live in poverty; some people are victims of misfortune of one sort or another. That I have problems connected to mental illness does not make those problems any worse or any less real than problems that aren't due to mental illness.

Third, I'm okay with who I am and how my mind works. Just like I don't mourn that I can't compose a symphony or win a marathon, I don't mourn my inability to concentrate, socialize, or multi-task. It's okay to have weaknesses, and I consider disability to be a neutral fact, not a tragedy.

So--OP, truly, we aren't just unrealistically optimistic Pollyannas trying to make the best of a bad situation. Many of us really are content with ourselves and our lives. Your life doesn't have to be perfect for you to be happy.

I have other issues beyond asperger's, nothing diagnosed, and the title vs. the poll is a bit misleading.. I have other external issues beyond asperger's but nothing to label myself as horribly messed up in the head. (i hope)

My current diagnosis is Generalized Anxiety Disorder. While I wasn't diagnosed with anything beyond that, at its worst, I will have mood swings and depressive symptoms. As well, I also believe that between the ages of 8 to around 18 or so, I definitely fit the criteria for social anxiety disorder...I hated people, and choose not to partake in the simplest of interactions with NTs as I found them unpredictable and confusing.

I have "it" which is yet to be identified.