Eternal Childhood

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I never feel like an adult at all and I'm 32 with no drivers license. People talk to me as if I'm a kid and have been mistaken for someone a lot younger. When I was about 25 or so I got asked by a dental assistant if I was 16 years old. I have two kids and yet I don't know if when or if I will ever feel like an adult.

I feel young, and the degree of maturity seems to float. People have commented that I don't reason like an adult.

Even though there are pros and cons, I hate it. Some pros are that I haven never lost that sense of wonder about the world, and I would never--almost--trade that for anything. The only thing I would give that up for is being capable of building a solid and secure future from my ambitions, without being dismissed as freakish.

I suspect some unidentified mechanism in the brain stops growing, gets stunted, so that the neurological maturation process either doesn't occur or occurs "unevenly".

I'm 20 and I still feel (and look) like I'm 13! I will color in coloring books and do things that younger kids do. When I go to the store I am drawn to the toy section or the arts and craft area. My boyfriend left for basic earlier in the week and when I am able to start to write to him I am going to be using gel pens and stickers because I cant stand just using a black pen on white paper! I get along better with younger kids too. Sometimes it feels awkward because I know I'm 20 and it makes me worried what other adults think when I'm hanging out with younger ages. I love hanging out with my cousin who is 13 and I get along great with her friends who are the same age. I get along better with them then I do with people my own age!!

I'm 38 and my ideal night out would be to go Garden hopping, I would start at one end of the road and see how far I could get. I don't get to do it to often these days but only a couple of years ago I went on holiday and decided to go garden hopping in the village where we were staying. It was the middle of the night so it was very dark and quiet. Anyway the whole night resulted in me getting chased by the locals and having to hide in a ditch.

I had the best time, my heart was racing ten to the dozen and there I was knee deep in s**t in a ditch.

When the coast was clear I made my way back to where we was staying. I was absolutely filthy and stinking to high heaven My boyfriend wasn't to pleased though, he had to clean me up and scrub my shoes

I know it's really naughty what I like to do but I've always done it, when I was younger it would have been with my friends but they grew out of it by the time they were 13 so I have to go out on my own.

I've just turned 20 years old and I honestly feel like a child in so many ways. I haven't felt any real defining moment of adulthood. Although I have done everything that most people would consider "becoming an adult" (starting a serious relationship, driving, getting employment etc) I don't feel like any of this has made any difference to how I am.
I wouldn't say I am "childish" but more "child-like", although I do react to certain things in a very childish way. But generally I see my child-like qualities in a more positive aspect. My special interests are somewhat child-like (dinosaurs) and I collect figures and name them and treat them as my friends, even talking to them and taking them out for day trips and pretending to feed them.
If any of the people I work with (I work at a factory building truck bodies) saw me for what I really am, they would surely think I am ret*d and ridicule me non stop. I have to act like someone I am not (the same when I was at school), although I just come across as very shy and aloof. I like the way I am though when it comes to my child-like qualities. And other people who are close to me like it too. My girlfriend just told me that she feels comfortable around me because of it, and that I am also very cute! She said her mum respects me for the fact that I do things the way I want to and don't feel the need to act grown up for the sake of it. It makes me very happy to know that the people who mean the most to me truly accept me for who I am.
I often feel that I am like this because I cannot cope with the responsibilities of adulthood, so I perhaps compensate and comfort myself with the things I do.
I don't feel any need to try to act grown up if I don't feel like it, and what I do causes no harm to myself or anyone else. So I will carry on as I am.

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THINGS I LIKE
Parasaurolophus, Plesiosaurs, Dinosaurs, Pterosaurs, Music, Tuna, Chocolate milk, Oreos, Blue things

Parasaurolophuscolobus. Parasaurcolobus. Colobusaurolophus.
....And Nunchucks are my friends.

I am still a teenager (just for a coulple of years more), but I do atypical things such as getting way overexcited about sweets, watching cartoons, reading books for children, sleeping with a plush dog, jumping and clapping my hands when I'm happy, drawing when I'm waiting for food at the restaurant...
A while ago I actually ate so much candy that I felt sick

I love eating sweets/candy too, once I start I just can't stop.