Do you prefer to live alone or with others?

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anyway, to continue, i had the roof area as my bedroom and it was a whole floor and it was very private. you can see the level of the ceiling on the second floor, and that was the floor of the attic which i inhabited. (there were windows on the other side)


since i moved out when i was 20, i have always lived by myself in houses. i could not even live in an apartment block with common walls to any other apartment. i like to be completely isolated from humans when i am at home.

my girlfriend wanted to move in with me but i could not tolerate it and i said no, and i have not seen her now for about 6 months, but i speak to her on the phone because she rings up about 3 times per day.
i have told her i am sick and that i would be no fun and would not be up to having company, and she seems ok with that.

she used to come over once a week to stay the night, and it was interesting for about 2 hours until she started to bore me, and then i just wanted to do my own thing and she wanted me to be engaged with her interests and i simply was not interested in them.

i liked to play music on the synthesizer and do puzzles and stuff, and she liked to talk about singers like kylie minogue and look at wedding dresses on the internet, and i can not pretend to be interested if i am not and it drove me insane.

also, when she got tired and went to bed, she used to get cranky with me for staying up and having my own fun, and she also got annoyed at the level of noise that i made while having my fun.

for example i sometimes fired up the flight simulator and played in it for a few hours, and all she could hear were boring jet sounds and it irritated her to the point where she exploded in fury on a number of occasions.

other times i would play games that included cannons and other artillery fire and people shouting "you're under attack!! !" at unexpected moments. the game used to be completely silent maybe for 20 minutes while i was positioning my units into their strategic positions, and she was almost asleep, and then i moved my units forward and suddenly explosions and shrieks of soldiers being wounded etc filled the house and she nearly leaped from her skin in fright.

i did not like having to tiptoe around my house when she was here asleep at 1 am..


sonia came over the other night, and she stayed up and bored me so much i went to sleep earlier than expected. she was going on about fiona apple and missy higgins and i have no interest in the slightest in them.

she then rearranged things in my house and did stuff while i was asleep that i was extremely annoyed about the next day.

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even if someone was the "ideal" companion....i.e someone who could put up with all my erratic activities and not get annoyed, the mere fact of them being there intrudes on my solitude and i do not like it.

i prefer to live alone.