drgoodietwoshoes wrote:
Do you guys tend to get paranoid about whether or not you've upset someone, or suspicious why people change their attitudes towards you? I'm hoping this is part of being an Aspie. . .(or maybe everyone has this problem occasionally--I probably tend to worry about it more than most though since I've had such a bad track record with coworkers)
Hmm, so today I'm feeling exceptionally paranoid about my co-workers. I like and trust almost all six of them. There is only one that hates me and I do not trust at all (because she is extremely two-faced, and then accused me of backstabbing her--which I think i may have done, but it wasn't out of malice, I was trying to help people get along--little did I know, then, that I am definitely not the person to do so). Well this morning when I came in, she was talking to another coworker, so i didn't do my normal thing which is to say "good morning" out loud to anybody in the area. The lady that dislikes me yelled "Good Morning, Nichole!" as I walked by. This makes me very suspicous since she usually doesn't acknowledge me. Also the coworker she was talking to, whom i like very much, has been very irritable lately. The problem is that, unfortunately, I can't tell if it is just me or if it is work in general--work is not going well for all of us since we are losing funding and people.
I also think that while I don't know why people are upset with me, I am at least fairly good at picking up *when* people are upset (in general or with me).
So yeah, now I'm all paranoid that they were talking about me, or at the very least, maybe I have been getting on people's nerves since they are all stressed out. . .
What about you guys?
I definitely over think it. I'm aware of the subtle change in their behavior. And usually I can think it through to find what it is.
Throughout my life I have had good functioning months and certain days that I'm cognitively spent. Off the latter, I get generally confused on a day by day basis to where I'm 'ill' you could say. I simply cannot 'think' ( that's the core of it) and I find myself in big trouble trying to behave on a normal level.
To give you one example: One day a neighbor insinuated that I went into their car and stole something from it. I heard this from a relative. The accuser said I was "acting funny." At the time I was having one of my serious metamorphosis' in losing my "cognitive performance" and "this" happens.
I feel as if I'm losing my mind and I certainly am.
It takes a tremendous amount of character ( that is developed only with time) to weather these storms.
15 Sep 2012, 6:58 am
