If you had the chance to cure you're Autism would you?

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"Curing" myself is just a too scary thought. I don't want to be someone else. I am quite happy about being me. I feel sorry for those who feel bad being themselves. I feel quite crappy when I have the worst spells of gender dysphoria, but would I rather just be happy being by bio sex? NOO. I don't want to be someone else in that aspect either!

I feel like without autism I'd be even more myself. It's hard to explain.

No, an absolute no in my case. It would be as mutilating and disabling to me as having a limb removed.

Hell, I'd take losing a limb over autism.

My brain functions in "aspergian" ways. Taking away those parts would be far worse than losing a limb would be. I would literally be brain damaged.

I have thought long and hard about this, multiple times, since learning I had Autism when I was 20. People that have Autism have had periods growing up when they express a desire to be "normal" and sometimes they still do into adulthood. I think about my life, about the situation I am currently in, and wonder how my life would have turned out differently had I not been Autistic, wonder if things would have turned out better in a multitude of ways.

But then, I think about how unique I am. About the things that I am good at. A writer, a professional music producer, a game programmer... would any of that had happened if I was "normal?" Maybe I would have stuck with one of them and pursued them further. Maybe I wouldn't have been interested in any of those. Would I want a life that was unlike the one I have now? Would I be less talented? It is for those reasons that I say that I would rather have Autism and be me than to experience life without knowing the joys of my talents and skills.

I am on the mild side also, but would love to be rid of AS. What are the assets that is has for you? I don't see many ways it made my life better. I can see lots of ways it made my life worse.

I completely understand what you mean. Autism keeps us from being able to express ourselves properly, leads us to miss many opportunities that we would like to have.
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I think I would be a better version of me if I didn't have AS

Seconded.

I think it's interesting that you, someone that has mild Autism, and I, someone who has "High-Functioning"/Aspger's, feel completely opposite about the same issue.

Not sure what you mean. I have Asperger's too.

I'd take a cure for all the negative symptoms and leave all the good, or I would find a cure that would work temporarily and I can take it whenever I go to work where I spend hours just doing the same repetitive boring stuff so my ADD like symptoms would not manifest then let it wear off.

Or if there were a cure and it was permanent, it would be best to give it when the child is very young like an infant or to an adult who can consent at an older age. For now I would like a cure lasting maybe twenty years just to get my career in place and life then retire as I am now.

Or maybe I would take the cure now. I'm old enough to still be me, I would still have my habits I've built up in life. To tell the truth, unlike some people with autism/aspergers, I kinda like doing things like going out for beers and would love to enjoy team sports but I cannot do so the way I am.

Professor John:

I'd wager that you wouldn't have become a full professor without Asperger's.

You would have been a party-hearty sort of guy, and wouldn't have had the discipline to pursue your doctorate.

I'd take the cure, as long as death is the cure. I'm tired of being everyone's scapegoat and being gas lighted.

I've been wondering...
Is it just autism you want to get rid? From your posts you mentioned ADD and anxiety. Would you be an NT with ADD and anxiety?

More or less. I don't know for sure if I have ADD. I'm working on getting a professional opinion. The anxiety is heavily rooted in my autism though; that is not in question.

So, I'd be in a much better position to deal with the issues that remained.