I'm an artist so can I be stable and creative?
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No. This Aspie cannot be stable and creative at the same time.
After years and years of trying to grow up, I spent ages in silent meditation. Eventually I found a little bit of the peace and concentration I had been longing to find. But to my horror, when I found this peace, I also found that all my creative energy had been flushed away. In trying to rid myself of the frantic, corrosive energy that had alienated me from most people I found that I had destroyed the same energy that allowed me to create my art. I was channelling the most negative parts of my life into my art. And even though I still go through trials that I think are going to kill me, even though my life is in no better shape than those frantic creative days, I have found that my artistic skills have basically evaporated.
I diverted the river of creativity within me. Straight into the sewer it seems.
I am more at peace now. But I'm no longer an artsit. And man is it a bizarre feeling.