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TheWarrior
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10 Feb 2017, 5:52 pm

androbot01 wrote:
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Indeed. Though the idea of being controlled by screwed up brain chemistry doesn't give me any kind of optimism.

It is this, I think, that has brought me to thoughts of suicide over the years. My body and mind are like a defective albatross that I can't escape. I am able to maintain hope at present because I have recently found medications that are quite effective. But that I need them to function scares me, I think because I am dependent on them to be who I am.

Can you tell me what medications are these? I'm considering trying something like that, just to check the differences.

I never used anything that altered my state of mind. Just used to smoke cigarretes and drink some beers, but never to the point of this changing my conscience. I even drunk a whole bottle of wine and felt nothing. Maybe my mind is already so screwed up that external things have little effect, haha.



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10 Feb 2017, 6:05 pm

TheWarrior wrote:
Can you tell me what medications are these? I'm considering trying something like that, just to check the differences.

The ones that make the most profound difference are seroquel and gabapentin.