-I rub the tops of my feet together when I’m sitting with my legs crossed out in front of me, usually when playing video games.
-Soft stuff, mostly I rub my hair between my fingers, as a small child I did the same motion with a soft piece of fabric.
-Listen to the same song, or small set of songs, over and over. Lately it’s been Cirrus by Bonobo.
-Singing, loudly
-Repeating sounds or words/names. This happens in my head a lot, I’ve been letting myself say things out loud more often.
-I didn’t think I hand-flapped but, I caught myself doing it the other day when a family gathering got too loud and I had to move to a quieter part of the room.
- I don’t know if it counts as a stim but, when my husband hugs me I ask him to squeeze hard enough to crack my back. It’s refreshing and clears my head for a little bit. I just made myself a weighted blanket and I wish I had made it heavier.
- Someone mentioned smelling things, I do that too. I didn't think of it as a stim until you mentioned it.
- Peeling my fingertips. This is the one that I really wish I could stop but, even thinking about trying to stop gives me anxiety. I've done it for so long that sometimes my touchscreen and fingerprint lock don't register some of my fingertips.
I’ve noticed that rocking, chewing on things, and repeating are things I did as a kid but, I don’t do much or at all anymore. I think the finger peeling may have arisen out of suppressing other stims, for the sake of “appearing more normal”. I was just formally diagnosed a couple of weeks ago so I’m still sorting through it as a middle-aged adult. This board is helping a lot, so thank you. It makes me feel better when I read that someone else does the things that I do and is OK with it, it's helping me undo years of suppression.
Do you all have weird words/names/songs pop into your head and repeat for hours, sometimes days? Last night the name Nicolae Ceausescu popped into my head and repeated, all I could think was wtf brain?