WallflowerAsparagus wrote:
I did not have a diagnosis. It is clear as day to me now that I understand. It makes me mad and upset that nobody (teachers, family) thought to help me even though they now admit that they noticed the social and developmental problems I was struggling with and chose to punish me instead. Because my anxiety attacks, meltdowns, not understanding phrases or how to change my tone of voice etc. were seen only as me choosing to me a "problem child" and I needed to be physically punished and interrogated for hours. I didn't understand why I was being punished...
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Oh, Wallflower, this is so sad
You just described how adults treated me when I was a child. I very obviously wasn't 'normal', but instead of sending me to a psychiatrist or special needs coordinator, they just endlessly criticised and yelled at me - even though I was never deliberately bad or disrespectful. After years of that, around about age 12-13, I begun showing signs of depression, which got dismissed as either "teenage moodiness", "bad attitude" or "attention-seeking", resulting in even more punishment. And so the downward spiral continued
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Is God willing to prevent evil, but not able? Then he is not omnipotent. Is he able, but not willing? Then he is malevolent. Is he both able and willing? Then whence cometh evil? Is he neither able nor willing? Then why call him God?
- Epicurus