Do you want friends?

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right now i (36ftm) have two friends, (32f) and (61m).

one of them sometimes talks to me after class. she sometimes drives me somewhere. grocery store, job interview, whatever.

the other one, sometimes answers my e-mail. but known him for eight years and only dialed his number once. only gone to his house, when he hired me to pull weeds. often he does not answer the e-mail or takes a long time. sometimes he wastes $$ on me like grocery shopping, but only if i happen to see him at trader joe's. a couple years ago, that used to be often, about once a week.

yes i want more friends. quality and quantity.

but risk versus reward.

not willing to take the risk/investment. because of potential loss.

gains are like whooptie do .

losses are like subject to imagination

for example, previous precious lil "friends" like amy lee scheel b***h. when she was my "friend" we talked, hung out, whatever. (whooptie do). when we had a falling out, in 2012. it is now 2020 and i have yet to get over it.

she told me off

but whatever

"life" goes on and on and on and on and on

Yes I do..

But yeah hard to find ha ha, that said me and my boyfriend are working on getting more involved with warhammer minature games specifically warcry right now. We're tying to get competent enough at it we could maybe play with other people instead of just me and him. We were part of a group that played a different war-hammer game but meeting every sunday just was too much for us so we had to drop out.

Other then that I've found something I may be interested in, not sure if my boyfriend would be.

I have a steady friend group of about 4. Then I have a friend from outside my friend group that I like to go see regularly.

i really don't really care if i have friends or not. i spent a lot of my free time at home and i do out with one person every once in a while, but its not like i feel like I'm missing out on having weekly gatherings at my house or having fancy dinner parties.

In concept, yes

In practice, monopolistic competition

Whatever

"Much Ado about nothing"

Almost everyone and everything has good and bad qualities

Almost nobody and nothing is worth the energy it takes to approach or avoid s**t

Sometimes I feel left out and craving friends

But if lil dips**ts keep saying "huh" and "what" to me instead of "excuse me", or asking annoying questions or too judgmental, then what the flying f**k ever s**t

Yes, but I will never have one! I find it impossible to talk to people!
I never find people with the same interests as me and when I do I still find it hard to talk,because those people usually have more interests that are not the same as my interests.
I also do not have much life experience and I am not aware of many world events or news, so basically I have nothing to say and the conversation dies off and is just awkward...
I also do not talk (or type) like other people my age...like about memes and stuff for example...
So I've accepted that although I am only 19, I will most likely never have a friend, as I do not even talk to my siblings.
It is very lonely... *sigh*

You are quite young and life is going on. You are able to improve. You shouldn't give up yet. If you are attractive people will try to become your friend just because you are a young girl. Some of this just depends on nonverbal stuff like eye contact, RBF, body language, the way you dress aso. It's something that you can learn. If you are highly autistic then it's harder of course. You may send me a PM if you want a private opinion or some help for specific problems. I'll keep all private stuff private.

If it comes to me I never cared much about making friends and keeping contacts.

I have quite a few friends, but the really really close ones are very few. Some newer friends, and some friends who I've had for a while.

I answered yes on the poll, but it's complicated. I am opened to making new friends, if someone has a personality I mesh with, or a common interest. It takes time for friendships to develop, and sharing space with someone doesn't automatically make them a friend. But I'm also a person who needs a lot of space, and with pushy people who try too hard too soon, I'll be friendly, but I don't want those types of people as friends.

And exactly what am I supposed to do with these "friend" things anyway? Reminds me of an Invader Zim episode where he only wants one to appear more human and blend in. Once people see he has a "friend", he's like, "I am no longer in need of your friendship services. Good day!"

Even though part of the reason to have friends is to blend in, this is not the only part. The other part is emotional support. When I see others emotionally connect to their friends I can't help but envy them.

I always find the question "Do you want friends" confusing when I see it on autism questionnaires.

I want online friends. I don't care if I have real life / in-person friends, and would only want to talk to them online.

The AQ and other standard surveys for autism don't differentiate, but there's a BIG difference between having online friends and long-distance friends, versus people you'd have to see day to day.

There's a couple people I'm friends with online, but I'd like to have friends in real life, or at least get to meet the ones I have online. It's very hard for me to talk to and connect with people in real life though, and since I haven't had a lot of friends throughout my life I have no idea how to make any. Half the time I'm unsure how I even made the online friends I have. lol

Sort of, just would like to have shared moments or experiences with someone else that I've made a connection with, rather than it always been there (family). Which could be covered by a partner instead as it's still a type of friendship too. Realistically I don't see either happening.

It's kind of hard for me to make friends now with the social distancing.

LOL that is so true. It's a lot of work. I recently wrote an ex on fb and she didn't write me back for a while and she said it was because she never knows when I am going to go mia on her again. another ex of mine said the same thing a while back, i go underground for years and then pop back up and expect everything to be the same. btw I have already gone mia on the first ex again that I was talking about. she will probably never speak to me again...i just deleted the whole profile, i'm amazed people keep them for like years.

on the friends thing I feel like I let people down because I don't want to put in the work. so most of those relationships just fade away.