blooiejagwa wrote:
my cousin Y used to be my role model/hero since we were 2 and 3.
I realized a few years ago...
she is just as flawed as anyone else.
she comes off as an intelligent, kind, ethereal, perfect, serene being.
like the aura they try to convey of the elf Arwen (<<liv tyler acting as) in that movie.
even adults looked up to her, like my dad kept telling me to be like her. and elder people would defer to her opinion on any subject.
one cousin -- who was born a psychopath i think, but extremely cute--
even SHE was in awe of her and respected her. and listened to her.
even though she respected and listened to nobody else ever in her entire life

and could hoodwink anyone and do anything without limits.
i admired her so much that, when XH began calling and visiting,
i kept saying to go marry her instead as i felt he was too good for me.
even in tears.
i could spend ages praising her to him.
what a nutjob i must've come off as.

I feel like you underestimate the sort of 'catch' you appear to be.
On topic: Emma Goldman is as close as anyone. Westside, Conway and Benny because they've made their dream happen.
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