Myrkabah wrote:
I think it's quite possible to go from low-functioning to high-functioning over time and as you grow up. I function quite well now, but I was socially crippled as a child/teen. I think it's much harder to cope as a child and as a teen because you lack the self-awareness at that developmental stage to analyze yourself and compensate for your difficulties. The fact that aspies are typically tormented by their peers during this time doesn't help - the usual reaction is to withdraw further into one's self instead of working more towards being socially promiscuous.
I agree. I think that if I could have gotten dxed 10 years ago (instead of a month and a half ago), I would have been lower on the aspie scale.
I remember a lot of things, but one thing that sticks out particularly in my mind is what I would do during church, when I was supposed to be at Acteens (the pre-teen/teen girl group). They would be talking music and boys and make-up, and all that stuff that I was barely aware of, let alone interested in. Meanwhile, after figuring out that we couldn't connect, no matter what I did, I would just go hide up in the baptismal every Wednesday night until it was over.
Today, I'd be able to talk to at least someone and stand it, or I would tell someone that I just didn't want to go at all.
I digress. Autism isn't static. We keep getting better at stuff as we get older. My school experiences taught me survival skills--and that included learning how to blend into the crowd somewhat; a skill hard earned that was expensive for me to learn, in terms of emotional turmoil that I'm still getting through to this day, but it was ultimately valuable to me.
I wouldn't suggest it though.
At home, I'm more aspie-ish than when I'm out. And when I'm stressed, I'm aspie-ish everywhere.
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