I don't know what reading the bible might do.
I think it's important not to see "autism" as one monolithic condition. it is made of several different/distinct and actually quite separate areas of functioning, some of which often occur together, but some of which may be susceptible to cognitive approaches.
I am currently zigzagging in and out of belief in god as an "efficient first cause", as a partial remedy for some aspects of those characteristics included in "aspergers", for instance that i have an almost insatiable need to attribute agency and cause to everything i encounter, ( a byproduct of development in cognitive functions in human brains over last 50,000 years, which have high survival value, but....) ; if i canNOT satisfactorily assign agency etc, i tend to experience the said thing/event/data as malevolent/threatening/anxiety-inducing murk, a perception which keeps me in permanent fight or flight mode, which is exhausting, and may have something to do with why i stay away from so much, including people, murk supreme!!
When i manage to get handle on belief in god, to believe in fact, i suddenly realise how my life has been very largely like that of lone scout in enemy territory, constantly trying to interpret data ( every single "sound", "smell","movement", etc) all around me. It has made me very jittery. When i manage the belief ( in god) i suddenly feel as if i've been rescued, or have reached safe ground or something, which induces tears of relief and gratitude, which is all a bit weird.
But naturally i am dithering; because i don't like admitting weakness for one thing, and because the thought that an overactive/"overgrown" cognitive function of seeking and attributing agency and cause all the time might be usefully "treated" with religion, with its unfortunate side effects, eg; tendency to want to convert everybody else to same way of thinking cos otherwise feel feeble, irrational and idiotic, is slightly offputting. Even worrying.
However the feeling of being suddenly relieved of some at least of the burden of trying to understand and interpret everything all the time, ( which i love doing, and do not want to stop doing either; it's just the times i cannot do it "enough" to find a satisfactory final explanation that are so wearing! ) is powerful stuff, which intend to investigate further.

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