As a child I was ridiculed for flapping my arms, but it’s something that I love doing. So, instead of stopping I kept it secret. I have kept my shameful secret for 30 years with out telling a soul. A secret which I break here tonight!.
I flap when I get excited and I go into a kind of trance and I visualize even more exciting things, and so I start flapping even harder. I find it very enjoyable, it’s a bit like having my own rollercoaster that I can jump on any time I want.
Tonight I asked my self the question ‘Why do I flap?’, and as usual when I have a question I turned to the internet. I found stuff on Asperger’s, and I found this web site.
I don’t know if I have Asperger’s or not, but a lot of the stuff mentioned sounds a lot like me. I am obsessive about my projects and I waffle on about them at length to people who are being bored to tears. My two main obsessions at the moment are computing (3d graphics, AI) and psychology.
Unlike an Aspie though, I am a social animal and always make new friends easily and I enjoy social situations. Mind you I was very socially withdrawn as a child, I think people (social interaction, sociology, psychology, etc) may have become one of my obsessions.
Am I Aspie?