What does this fantasy tell you about my mental health?

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well i do use the terms loosely i am afraid.
i should be more refined in my words.

did you really get the highest score or was that a factor only in your dream?

do you really need to be validated to a wide peer audience based upon a dream of who you are?

and the anger expressed at the teachers that did not see you as gifted when you felt that gifted was what you were, is relieved in dreams like which you have described.

the delusional content is one of grandeur (ideational exaggeration of status).
if you did score the highest and were overlooked i am so sorry.

but it seems unlikely that you would be recognized except in a dream of yours that yearns for actualization.

i do not endorse what i said about schizophrenia last night, but there are some aspects that make me wonder.

I feel extremely insulted

I would, too. I often wish that the person who starts a thread had a way of moderating and deleting anything that doesn't fit, or any hijacking. Like a rule that says, "It's your party." What does that fantasy say about MY mental health?

I am recieving psychotherapy, and trying to get rid of these overdramatic negative thoughts.

I am skipping "psychotherapy" and doing my best to cultivate anger and over-dramatic stuff. I'm a natural born wimp, and this is difficult for me. I'm not into "negative" thoughts. I'm aiming for reality. Living in a fantasy world doesn't work. They will tell you that there are rules, and that following these rules will somehow, by some inexplicable magic, improve your situation. They lie. Being a wimp just makes me invisible. When I follow the rules, no one can hear me. Time to start something new.

Assertiveness training might be a good thing, but no one has ever suggested it. I have no idea of what it entails.