Autistic posture and facial expression

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At school, I had horrible posture. I suppose that's normal for bored as hell teenagers though. At home, however, or in other situations, I was complimented on a regular basis for my posture.

My mother chided me when I was younger for walking with my head stuck out. She thought it insanely stupid looking, and remarked on this often. I basically lead my body with my head, even today. That's how it looks anyway.

I don't believe myself to have poor muscle tone as I used to wrestle. However, I do lean myself on things. Ever since I was a child I used to "tuck" myself into tight spots, or force my body into positions where I was "stuck." Example of this these days is my posture in whatever vehicle I'm in. Having my arms and hands in a way that there is "force" keeping my body in place. It's difficult to explain. :-/

I tend to carry my head pushed a little forward and tilted slightly downward and to the right. I am not normally aware of it. School-photo photographers used to think I was doing it on purpose so I'd look like I was being hanged in my picture, and I now remember to straighten up when I encounter a camera.

I toe-walk. People made fun of me a lot for it in school, and I tried to stop, but I still do it most of the time.

I once walked in on my paternal grandmother, my step-mother, and my brother's wife all laughing about how their husbands do 'The Tyrannosaurus Walk' when they aren't feeling well. Toe-walk, tilt head forward down and to the right, draw your arms up to your chest with hands hanging limp from the wrists. They were imitating this around the kitchen wearing slack blank expressions and giggling, and saying how it was really useful because they could tell when their husbands were coming down with a cold before the husband knew it, and send him to bed. Grandmother noticed me and remarked that it's not useful when I do it because I do it all the time.

Actually, I don't do the arm thing much, as it really attracts negative attention, but last time I was ill I was totally tyrannosaurusing around the house for a couple of weeks.

Anyway, I seem to remember Danielismyname describing 'The Tyrannosaurus Walk' in some previous thread and saying it, and its components, are a neurological thing.

I have been told I look very animated at times - I have always felt off with my expressions and when I used to take the train to college and I was bored I would have music [earphones] on and do facial expressions like some sort of subconscious practising. I can only make sense of it in retrospect - at the time I just used to not make myself to aware or wonder why.

I can have a very flat expression on one extreme but my usual is just sulky or maybe a bit p!ssed off. Then there are times I am overly expressive - it's like all things I notice with me - not really any middle ground.

When I was little I became aware that when I was walking I used to hold my arm up but with my hand just hanging down / limp wristed and it took alot of focus to stop doing it when I realised it didn't look to good.

And I always hate sittng on a chair in the 'normal' way - I always like my legs tucked some way or another or I like to kneel but I don't like my legs just hanging there like they do if you sit the regular way.

Last thing I notice in many pictures of me I always have one shoulder higher than the other no matter how straight I thought I was standing. When I became aware of that I tried harder to not do it but still, in most cases, one shoulder is higher?

I was told by my mother, from the time I was a child, that I both sit and stand so straight, I look like I have 'a ramrod up the arse'.

Others have simply commented that I'm one of the rare tall females who not only wears heels all the time, but always stands super-straight.

All of this is massively ironic given the fact that I've got scoliosis and my right shoulder and hip are now a good inch higher than my left....

The Hummingbird Thing? Would that look anything like this -



Cos I still do this on occasion....





(Yes, as a matter of fact, I was almost as much of a ridiculous anachronism at 6 as I am now....and damn proud of it!)

My posture isn't too weird but it's not that good either, and I'm always bumping into stuff or losing balance.
I have a pretty normal walk although I used to walk on my toes. My face usually looks pissed off or like I'm deep in thought, I do smile though if I'm thinking about something funny

I saw pictures of me at my sister's wedding. I looked like I wanted to kill people, which was odd because i was having a good time.