On PHUN? WP RULES!topic
o yessssss, no end on this timeless flight, fun is the one thing i have re.dis.covered with my selfdx; and in a sense (!), without there being too much external evidence in the decade preceding my recent dx - i NEVER lost my sense of humour (and self-mockerish, sceptically-satirical rather than the cynically-sarcastic it can be taken for
it is my sense of humour that saved my ass, allways
it is my sense of humour, finally, that allowed sufficient distance of self to enable honest selfobservation within the sudden framework of autism -
and made me capable of seeing - at immediate instance, knowing
humour is not the same as fun, granted
but with above said; and in the realization that i present NO autistic trait that could ever be recognized in terms of sympton&affliction,
i.e. i am autistic pervasively (if only they could see the obvious),
but what i HAVE is all to some extent autistic giftedness
and what i LACK i never had, i can know discard for option,
with all that said, you will understand how it is that...
(recognizing me as is) AS is the funniest thing that could have ever happened to me
gosh, i risk having to spend 7 days in police holding over an unpaid fine i really do not want to pay (and is worth three weeks to me), as it is all based on their administrative mistake; and i am in debt, no more place of my own (pathetic, 52, at mum' s), i was not even in any form of (legally required) medical insurance for a couple of years
the bloody hospital, despite the fact this had been expressly addressed by me and i was given repeated assurance that the state would still cover it, has recently doubled my debt situation with an diagnostic invoice for Euro 13.000; i have been spending all last year since selfdx like this
and during all that, when i should have been sitting back and getting used to this new thing, i have been afforded NO TIME to get through any (even merely self-administered) postdx-therapeutical procsess whatsoever,
and still yet still...
not for a single moment have i not experienced an eternally sceptical, but
grinnnnnnnn nonetheless/toxically@RobertO.iii <(;-]]]]
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