timeisdead wrote:
PrisonerSix wrote:
timeisdead wrote:
I was wondering if this was a trait pertaining to AS. I feel no need to conform to social norms and want it my way or the highway. I am also more intrinsically motivated than extrinsically motivated. My thoughts matter more to me than the thoughts of others. I often feel that justice and righteousness are more important than conforming to a pecking order that is morally flawed. I would rather be despised than live my life in misery.
I have always preferred to choose my own activities and didn't really care what others did. I guess I always had a "live and let live" attitude, i.e. I think I should do my thing and others should do their's. That has often left me in a vacuum, but that hasn't always mattered much.
I've actually found it was the NTs who had the "my way or the highway" attitude towards me, not the other way around. I never understood how going off and pursuing my own interests was such a problem for others. I can't help if I don't like the same things others do, that's just who I am. It's not wrong to have your own interests, even if they aren't everyone else's.
I don't care if others peruse their own interests as long as they don't interfere with my own. In terms of society, I would rather be disliked and given freedom than be well loved and denied everything I desire.
That is how I feel, I just wanted to do my own thing, pursue my own interests, and be happy. I don't really care what others do, I just want to be left alone.
For 4 years of my childhood, my family attacked this by denying me what I wanted to do and forced swimming on me day in and day out, with no sign of relief. I've posted about this before and it's one of the best examples of NT conformism.
I'm glad I'm free now.
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PrisonerSix
"I am not a number, I am a free man!"
09 Apr 2009, 9:41 pm
