I think probably everything that I might say has been said. But being a verbal creature, maybe a little more around the edges.
SSRIs are not Valium, not even close. Totally different thing. When they work, you feel things. When you're de profundis is probably not the best time to find out which one(s) might work for you, because it takes at least two weeks, probably more like a month, of faithful consumption every day, to know whether it's going to work, and a month for every possibility would take you to high summer, and maybe even around again. When you might well be at the top of your cycle anyway. For an instant effect, a little vacation from the changelessness, try cannabis.
It's the time of year for the depths.
The hopelessness and futurelessness, the idea that nothing is going to change, are illusions, like walls of flame or dragons in a fantasy. You have to _remember_ that they are illusions, and walk through them. Do stuff. Do the next thing. Put one foot in front of another in the black fog when you can't see where you're going.
I question your theology, but this is not the time or place to argue theology.
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Asperges me, Domine
09 Jan 2012, 12:31 pm
