JSBACHlover wrote:
pleasekillme wrote:
micfranklin wrote:
Between zoning out often, responding in a semi-monotone voice, thinking out loud and barely speaking in certain social situations....yeah, I'd say I'm aware of my Aspie-ness.
I'm pretty much the exact same way. The awkward, confused silence just screams "This guy is autistic", but most people are trained to translate it as "This guy is un-f**k-able!"
Uh.....WHAT? Pleasekillme, I don't understand.
I DON'T understand. I'm a proven Aspie and there's no denying it. Any attempt to deny it to those who know me is met with uproarious laughter
AND
I can REALLY relate to the "zoning out often, responding in a semi-monotone voice, thinking out loud and barely speaking in certain social situations" and the "the awkward, confused silence"
AND I CAN
REALLY RELATE TO the "This guy is un-f**k-able!"
AND it does make for a sad and lonely life even though I prefer to be alone (I don't want anyone - it'd just be nice to be wanted. Leaves me wondering "Why do people want to socialise with each other and not me? What's wrong with me?"). Correction - not sad and lonely - sexless & sad life. I've always felt like I've been left out of life. I've never felt like I belong here on Earth amongst other people.
BUT... Given all that, I don't want to kill myself or have others kill me or even want to give up all of the terrific things and talents I wouldn't have if I wasn't an Aspie. Being an Aspie is fantastic. I enjoy being different. I'm comfortable with myself and who I am and wouldn't give it up for anything in the world. I've worked too long and hard at it to give it up, especially for some stupid messy sex life. I just get sad sometimes but it doesn't last long.
I LOVE being me

I LOVE being an Aspie
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Your Aspie score: 151 of 200
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 60 of 200
Formally diagnosed in 2007.
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