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Look you accuse people of wanting to "control your life" I say WHAT LIFE? Sleeping in the gutter, getting toes cut off, having your undies swiped, wasting money on fast food? Why do you post all that here on a public forum anyway?

...I decided to go out again, heavily because I was completely out of diet soda. I also said I'd go to a library, and did, and to the 5:30 PM service ( Not a full Eucharist) at the Episcopal church - But, at the Metro Center, it's so dark and murky-raining that I didn't want to wet my - a little too informal - clothes in the walk up there, and the bus schedule is so, and my handicapped slowness so, that getting to Walgreen's a block-ish away and back in time for the 5;45 bus back my way, the last for hours, is likely not do-able . So, I'll bus up to the Capitola Mall and get diet soda at Target there.

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Even without getting diet soda at Walgreens, when an Episcopal service starts at 5:30 p.m. and the last bus back leaves at 5:45 p.m., that's cutting it too close to make the return trip safely. As for your clothes, Jesus wouldn't judge them. Anyways, I prayed for you at my church this evening.

...The absolute last bus back to my place to-night from the Metro Center is 9 PM, 3:15 after the 5:4/, that's what I was referring to. I didn't I guess really spell it out - It's 7:12, I'll - 7:13 now! -14! , I'm - 15! -, I'm -16! - at the Capitola Mall now I'll take either 8:00 or 9;40 (the absolute last) back, I was getting depressed in my room-space ...






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Even without getting diet soda at Walgreens, when an Episcopal service starts at 5:30 p.m. and the last bus back leaves at 5:45 p.m., that's cutting it too close to make the return trip safely. As for your clothes, Jesus wouldn't judge them. Anyways, I prayed for you at my church this evening.[/quote]

...I just get depressed lying here all the time. I kind of want to leave but if I left right now it would be swkward to carry that backpack and duffel - and where would I go to ? Nobody here, at this facility has inaugurated anything to me suggesting where I should go.The cough is REALLY uncomfortable at times, several times a day I cough - and people tend to blame you for it and hate you for it, as if you chose to do it . OK has suggested that I could get hndicappedb housing because of the coughing but so far there has been no sign
of that happening. I'm fraud of being stuck with a massive bill for my lack of Medi- now .

You have a roof over your head, that's a good thing.
As for getting handicapped housing, you're going to have to be the one to initiate that and talk to someone.
A lot of times in this life, if you don't speak up and fight for yourself, no one else will.

I'm sorry about your cough ...
and you just reminded me of a saint, a nun who was sick most of her life.
People would look at her, think that she didn't look as sick as she said she was, and expect her to work.
Then, when she was sick in bed in the infirmary, people would laugh and talk outside her door
so she couldn't rest properly.
Even the best people in the world can be treated horribly ...
by other people who are supposed to be the best people in the world.
And yes, it stinks. (to put it mildly)

I hope things will get better for you.

Trust me: They know you can't pay the bill. They would have thrown you out if Medi-Cal wasn't paying it.

You have so many books to read, my friend. Make use of your idle time to peruse them.

...I don't have that many " book " books, actually - all words, no illustratntionz - I have perhaps too many comics, which I tend to only want to read when I can read them with the sun shining on me:-) and which can' t be done in my murky room (with the crochety dementia'd guy) - frankly, I want to use
a computer even more but this teeny-ting phone is difficult to do things on AND it sometimes just won't work AND my eyes get tired fast, strained, with the floaters in my eyesight .








iekortie"]Trust me: They know you can't pay the bill. They would have thrown you out if Medi-Cal wasn't paying it.

You have so many books to read, my friend. Make use of your idle time to peruse them.[/quote]

...I'm a real fast reader and modern comics tend towards such big illustrations with so few words that I don't get much use out of them, I read them so fast. For reading prose books at length, again, I tend to have a difficult time getting myself to do that in hospital situations - Frankly the lack of being able to read in a " proper " physical position, not being able to sit on a decent chair and spread the book before me on a table - that hurts me .

...I'm going to repeat what I said regarding my eyes - my left, in particular - getting tired , and the floaters . KK has seen a picture of me, and thinks I should get a trimming. I'm nog completely against that, but I would want a haircut I LIKED, not Generic Institutioal Crop No. 2 - especially since I think my hair has stopped growing with age, any new haircut might be permanent.

...Okay, a haircut. I've said " I'd like to go to a Super Cuts, something like that, maybe trim the hair & beard right, maybe color my beard " - I found a Super Cuts near me, but i' m not making an appointment at this point - What life do I have to live to show the haircut at? I'm either here, at the place, or downtown/the mall shopping . I think that such a doing-over might cost a bit - $100? - and, even making a aplointment/ finding the hours to do it might be hard - Plus, I just don't quite feel " normal/real/clean " enough . I'm not quite in the " real world ", just hanging around this rehab place.

If you want to get a better response from the people around you, getting a haircut and being clean is a good first step.

You can get a decent haircut for about 15-20 dollars.

I get one every two months for that price.

Jack Kerouac always had a neat haircut.

..." Clean " isn't quite what I mean - It's, sort of, having nice enough clothes, having an. involvement - As I said, too, a good trim would require some money, and some time being put aside/found in which to do it.








phoenix"]

If you want to get a better response from the people around you, getting a haircut and being clean is a good first step.[/quote]

Anything worth having takes effort.

...Now that I've been in this situation for a couple of months, I'm somewhat usef to it, and I can think " What next :, since I am fairly close, I guess, to my official physical problem, the right foot, being healed...So what do I do then ? Now that winter's coming and it gets dark so early I think I have some SAD going . My space in my room is minimal, a bed across from some drawers and all so a locker, as I said I have too much reading and a lot of rather scanty/light clothing, more than I could carry if I had to. There's the dementia'd dude who yells at me - And, it"s maybe looking like any thought of going to Cabrillo for CC and uni from there might break on the rocks of maybe not being physically up to it AND not finding anybody to help me (Like, you know, person/s here who lecture me about how they set up going to college 100 percent all on their lonesome when in fact they had a counselor and an office full of forms available to them .) AND that the CC scene here seems to tend to revolve around yransgerably to the University of California and California State University systems when it seems likely that my 2013 dispute with California likely puts admission to UC and CSU campuses out of reach for me ...