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How do you feel when pursuing your special interest?
I forgot this part of the topic!
My special interests can bring me a lot of happiness, even euphoria, and enjoyable hyperfocus.
But at times they can also lead to frustration, rage and grief, because I love turtles and wolves and the situation for both is pretty dire. Poaching, loss of habitat, trigger happy idiots who'd rather shoot than take responsibility for their livestock, dumb politicians making dumb decisions.... None of that is any good at all and brings me down and more importantly is bad for the poor animals.
I love animals and would love to work with animals, it's the only thing that would be worthwhile, but my allergies stop me, and herpetological animals have been all out banned here (a law I hate with a vengeance), although slightly softened some months ago. So outer circumstances lead me to not spend nearly as much time as I would want on the topics I love the most because I can't focus on just the good about it when the reality of their existence is where it is, the bad is important and imminent.
The only part about reality that matters to me (outside my family) is endangered, and I am helpless in doing anything about it.
That's when I take refuge in fiction rather than merely enjoy it as I used to.