Aspie1 wrote:
When I walk past a group of people, I can almost hear them whispering amongst themselves: "Did you see that loser walk by? Yeah, he's so creepy. How can he live like this?" I even cross the street when I see large groups of standing. .
I do too. And the worst thing I'm realising at this point, is that I try to pretend that it's not happening (inside of my brain) when I talk to people (or like Aspie1, just walk past a group of people). It's like no matter how accomplished I become professionally, I'm still paranoid that I'll be "outed" as a loser at any moment.
I don't think I understood what a toll this hiding had taken until very recently. I'm working on healing by re-reading the Harry Potter book 3, the one where Harry goes back in time to save himself.
13 Jul 2017, 6:37 pm
