I can pay attention to details that most people miss like the way a shadow looks beautiful, or the grass bending gently in the wind, how in these moments I can go to a place where the world is beautiful and there are no words in my mind, just pure beauty in that moment. It is wonderful to be able to go to these wordless moments in my world. I cant even explain it, but I get such wonder and amaement at the simplest things and these momemts make life worth living.
I also love my special interests' intensity because they give me a breath of life into my otherwise dull existance. My interests make me, I dont make them.
on the more practical side, I have a good excuse to not be married by now...nor wanting to be wed or having kids and contributing to the overpopulation of the planet by humans.
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All art is a kind of confession, more or less oblique. All artists, if they are to survive, are forced, at last, to tell the whole story; to vomit the anguish up.
-James Baldwin