How have you changed since joining this forum?

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My hair is two and a half millimetres longer.

thanks to this forum, by and large, i am a better person than i was.

I joined a few months after I was diagnosed with autism and I found everyone really nice and welcoming. I met GalileoAce, who was to become my husband.

A few years later I was banned for no good reason and I didn't fight it, I just spent my time other forums. Years later I felt like posting here again, so I contacted a moderator who appealed to Alex to make me a member again. He did. I've been posting on and off since then.

There's such a wide variety of people here. It makes for an interesting read. I feel good at the moment, which was completely different from how I was back in 2005.

I think I'm similar. I use forums less than I did when I joined. They're good for occasional interaction and information.

I’m trying to be a bit more forgiving of my own quirks; when I can’t just act “normal”, and my emotional intelligence is only sufficient to recognise this after the fact. While I don’t want to make excuses for myself, I should not beat myself up over small things so much.

I haven’t made any moves toward diagnosis yet because I’m somewhat afraid of what a declaration in either direction might mean. That said, I recognise more when I have strange feelings and episodes that do fit with ASD.

How did you find out you have autistic traits? It took me years to discover this! It took me two years to pluck up the courage to ask for an assessment. I have not been on the list for long. It seems a long list. But as I am struggling to cope with a work enviroment, so I don't work which means no income... So it looks like I may need to survive like this for a while. The autism people were saying they may help with some sort of income for me but I am not sure. Things have gone quiet. I don't aant to cause a fuss, so I will sell more of my model train collection to make ends meet as and when I need to. I realize I am never going to have the money again to but the things I am selling, as prices are going up rediculously fast, but secondhand prices have dropped to an all time low... But as long as I keep one or two trains to enjoy, I am happy...

I just am concerned that I need to somehow recover in these years of waiting enough so I am able to work again without having shutdowns, and I am not sure if this will happen.

So if you are struggling, put yourself on the waiting list anyaay. It is a couple of years long here in Wales by the looks of it, and you may not know what can happen in a couple of years. If you told me fifteen years ago that working four hours a day just three or four days a week was too much for me, I would have been puzzled. But that's what can happen.

I hope to recover back to as I was before. I know this is a rough patch. I have never been this low before so it can't get any worse! So I am expecting to be heading back to better times again.

Try to avoid mid life crises. It has nothing to do with owning a Porsche. It is horrible!