2ukenkerl wrote:
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Seeing the amount of caps and exclamation marks in your post I have to think I attacked you. But I did neither deny your status of having AS nor did I explicitly deny anyone else's . I do not know anyone here so I cannot judge anyone specifically and I did not do so. But there are people thinking of having AS without good reason. I am sure it is positive and actually helping them to get on with their life to make them thinking about it. If I have to stress the disability aspect to do that then I will do so.
I did not tell you that you cannot have AS if you do not have tics. The implication "NO TICS -> NO AS" is yours, not mine. I wrote about tics because I have got them. I might say "sorry, no offense intented" but I do not see why. If you question yourself having AS by reading my post I have to deny this being my fault. I am sure my tics are related to AS because they occur in close relation to stimming and pacing.
I may be ashamed of having a disability, this is true. When I have to pace when thinking intensely about a problem, for example an algorith or data structure so that I have to leave my computer workplace and when I further go to have tics the moment I enjoy having found a solution for something and have forgotten to be in a public place while pacing then this is disturbing and not welcome. It attracts attention and I do not want to answer questions like "are you allright" from the well-meaning and I do not want to be looked at from the not-so-well-meaning who are negatively touched and are right to be. The solution not to work in public places or avoiding to focus too intensely is not a good way out.
I am confused about the question whether I would have to stim. There are situations where I just do, a solution is avoiding those situations. That very much feels like having to do it. I am not at all negatively affected by it but I do not live alone on this planet. It disturbs other people, for example in class or during a lecture and it is hard to stop it once started. Stopping breaks my thoughts and focus at least.
I am glad you agree with me in some ways, though.
Your words were not wasted on the munchhausers and attention-hungry....you wrote as if from my own diaries...flawless logic and quite poignant common sense, that even one like myself who seems to have 'no common sense' can fully understand and access every nuance, the full depth of your meaning...i only wish the busiest posters here were more like you. thanks; what you had to post really resonated with me. never mind the silly comments to your precise and accurate observations.
17 Sep 2007, 3:32 pm
