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I also wanted to add that I am also living with my parents, and I do have an amount of dependency on them. Since conventional employment doesn't work in a major way, I'm trying to get the internet commerce market to provide an income for me. I have marketable skills, though I do have a very hard time applying them at times. So currently my cash flow is a little erratic, and I can't guarentee I will have the money every month for rent, etc.

Also, I have bad anxiety and I don't think I would be able to live alone. I don't have a desire to be social with other people, though I do like the company of my parents. I could also be happy with the companionship of a spouse/SO. Elsewise, I could really give a frig less if I'm around other people. If I want to communicate, I come online. Rest of the time, I'm happy to do my own thing.

Okay, went off topic a bit there. Sorry. But I can say I wouldn't want to be alone at night. Too many hang ups, some them not even related to TS/AS, but personal experince.

However, since my mother has an MS type disease that makes getting around and working difficult, I do the vast majority of the housework and my share of the cooking. I handle the family's finances after my father got tired of over drawn checks and being stressed over bills. Truth be told, it stresses the hell out of me too but he had a heart attack last Oct, so I try hard to help out as much as I can.

I'm dependant on my parents as I need someone to guide me a little to help when I get so overwhelmed or focused on a small thing or my special interests that nothing gets done. I also need someone to help me with anxiety issues. And when I'm having a meltdown, well, being alone would be bad. Last time I did have one alone it was pretty bad. Maybe I wouldn't have them at home if I lived alone, but I also wouldn't get anything done. I'm trying hard with lists and schedules to keep everything on task, but I distract too easy or get focused elsewhere. Like many of you have described, I am able to walk past a dirty sink full of dishes for a week without it ever dawning on me to wash them.

I don't really go out often by myself. Generally, I go out with my father or my boyfriend, when I'm in a relationship, and am content with that. My father and I are buddies and we act like big kids out in public without worrying about other people's opinions. Now that I'm coming to believe we're both Aspies, I think I'm starting to understand why we're close as father/daughter and friends. I do drive and on good days I'll go to a few favorite spots on my own. Other times, I'm just too irrational and unpredictable to trust behind the wheel. I also have social anxiety and that makes me feel uncomfortable in a sea of strangers. I can enjoy going out if I have a partner and forget about everyone else around us (mindblind?) but when I'm alone, I start feeling paranoid and way too vulnerable. And my parents are relieved that I don't mind dragging Daddy around with me because they worry about me, since I seem to fall into harmful situations easily. I've been sexually abused by four different parties over my life time and I have a stalker floating around out there.

I think the best way to describe it is my thought process is not normal, so sometimes I need someone (my parents now, probably a hubby later) to pull me back into reality. I'm not broken, just wired differently.

I know what you're saying about living alone. I think my fear about that, is I might end up developing some kind of neurosis from being reclusive. Like, it's hard enough meeting people when you do live at home, vs living alone. I think everyone needs somebody to keep them on track, or they'd just do nothing all day. Or like if they're depressed they'd sleep too much and then that would only excacerbate the depression and...not good.

I am kind of whenever I think of my parents passing away, aside from the obvious reasons of feeling like that. Cause I'm like, then where will I go?

violet_yoshi,

I think this post pretty much says it all:

Lostinspace,

Where do you live in new york? I worked in armonk for a while, and it was a NICE area. The airport was crowded but well run. The company I worked at was in a well designed building in like a forest. The cafeteria felt like a picnic as they had panoramic windows looking out on the forest. I even saw a family of deer crawling underneath a fence. I don't know WHY they didn't walk/jump over it!

Of course, most of the big city areas are HORRIBLE and cost a FORTUNE!

an example. i'll use the capital city of new york.


To maintain the same standard of living, your salary of $10,499 in Flagstaff, Arizona could decrease to $9,946 in Albany-Schenectady-Troy, New York
Stated another way, it's 5.3% cheaper to live in Albany-Schenectady-Troy, New York than Flagstaff, Arizona

well i guess it depends on what cost of living calculator your using, this is the results for philidelphia i got,


To maintain the same standard of living, your salary of $10,499 in Flagstaff, Arizona could decrease to $9,578 in Philadelphia-Camden-Wilmington, Pennsylvania
Stated another way, it's 8.8% cheaper to live in Philadelphia-Camden-Wilmington, Pennsylvania than Flagstaff, Arizona

and heres the cost of living calculator im using: http://www.bestplaces.net/