Optimism and Reality: Goldfish21 Response to me

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Ding ding ding.. Thank you, cube.

I'm literally one of you, and I share what's changed my life so profoundly for the better out of the purest intention of helping others do similar things for themselves. I'm not interested in $ in the least bit. I'm interested in helping people like me.

It doesn't take a great stretch of the imagination to realise that things are going to work far better on the right fuel and by cutting out all the crap.
Don't think there's any debate there.

^ says I from my Epsom salt bath.

Because you still don't believe what I am telling you. I know you comprehend, because you are Not a stupid young man.

Off the charts AS symptoms completely f*****g my entire life into the ground.
Learned and did what I did & shared.
Living a second life of extremely high functioning ASD, so fully integrated into the social world that my friends of the last 4 years talk about Autism right in front of me & have never once clued in to the fact that I'm on the spectrum. I listen to them and their guesses and assumptions and comments etc, but I've not told any of those ones about my own neurotype. (I have told others, though.)

I know you aren't stupid.. but it seems that you think I must be & that it's not possible for me to know my own diagnosis nor know the differences in my functioning levels that doing what I have done has made for me. Why, I'm not entirely certain.. which is why, as much as I think it's a BS made up label, I'm leaning towards ODD for the simple sake of opposition to what I'm telling you.

There is Nothing exactly the same as Asperger's Syndrome except for Asperger's Syndrome. I've been very transparent about all of the comorbids that I know I'm afflicted by, as well as the degree to which they've been minimized by what I do so that I can lead a relatively normal life.

No! You're still not picking up what I'm putting down. 100% textbook match to Tony Attwood's Complete Guide to Asperger's Syndrome. These are the symptoms I alleviate with what I do, and the result is being able to navigate the social world intuitively & naturally like I never could before in my entire life. If ASD is a puzzle (like the marketing logo suggests) then the missing piece = probiotics in our digestive tracts that enable our enteric nervous systems to function more fully and assist our brains in the social functions we're deficient in.

How I conduct myself here? You mean as a man sharing the most important and valuable information he possibly can with people like him that it can help? Am I supposed to apologize for that?

Right, EzraS, I've been perpetuating a lifelong hoax just to troll you on a forum. Not. Get real.

The only attention I want is from people willing to open their minds to learning what's causing their symptoms to hinder their lives & how to go about healing themselves so that they, too, can live happier, healthier, lives. That's it that's all, same same as I've told you all for 5+ years now. You think I'm crazy for doing what I do, and I think others are crazy for not wanting this higher functioning life for themselves - but I don't go around calling everyone names about it. I just take your insults in stride and carry on.

Actually you stand apart quite a bit from the rest of us here and have for the most part alienated yourself. There's no reason to believe it's any better or different for you in the real world. I think aside from hanging out at a crowded beach you're painfully lonely and I almost feel bad enough for you to come visit you like you keep chronically asking for.

What is your current diet like?

No one has diagnosed me as Caucasian, either, but I keep checking that box on forms. Just because you don't believe me doesn't make me incorrect. Besides all that, I've offered to give you any and all evidence you request and you decided you're not interested, soooo, you don't really have a leg to stand on in that discussion anymore, really.

People like me typically don't get official diagnoses. Dr. Hans Asperger's work wasn't even translated into English until I was about 10 years old, and I functioned well enough to make it through public school as well as graduate from business school when I was 19 years old. There was no Need as a child to "find out what was wrong," with me, because like many, it wasn't so obvious or debilitating. It became so when I was ~29 years old after course after course of antibiotics that compounded until I couldn't function in life or work. I isolated myself and researched until I figured it all out, diagnosis after diagnosis, like falling dominos until I had all the answers I needed. I also Knew that I wasn't always that bad, and that if something could make it worse, then something could make it better. I just had to figure out what was causing it & how to counter it - and I did - and then life started to get better.. very rapidly, and I excitedly shared what I'd learned and done here.. and the response was what it was. But now medical research is proving everything I've been sharing here - so, for me, this is a very exciting time & the future only looks better. Not because this is going to help me function higher, I'm already there, but because it's going to help other people, and that's precisely what I'm all about.

Maybe you're not as intelligent as you come across here and that's perhaps a flaw in my assumptions about you, but I can tell you I don't need any outside expert to tell me what I already know about my own body/mind symptoms & functioning levels. I'm perfectly capable of discerning these things in myself and knowing what's changed. Unfortunately, it remains a symptom that when my functioning levels are lower that I'm somewhat oblivious to them and must rely on the reactions of others around me to realize I've made mistakes I don't typically make, and then I know what I need to do over x amount of time to be back in action, so I'll avoid people/parties etc during times after I've had to take antibiotics especially.

Are you incapable of knowing whether you're functioning higher or lower than your average? Or of knowing whether you're feeling socially anxious or not? Or of knowing if you're feeling depressed or not? Or do you have a team of doctors following you around 24/7 and telling you all of these things because you are incapable of realizing them yourself without their expert opinions?

No. I'm treating the root cause of these ASD symptoms and it works. No. There is no guesswork. I've told you before: I am certain of my diagnoses, and I am certain of my ability to alleviate symptoms via the medicines & processes I've described.

lol construction worker playing scientist in his kitchen or parents basement.. am I supposed to be insulted that you've called me a hard working man? You could call me other things. How about "Industrial Engineering Technologist," for I've earned the credential for that title according to the Applied Science Technologists & Technicians of British Columbia. How about "Chair of Business and Health Sciences," for that was my title & position on the BCIT Student Association when I was 19 years old. Or you could call me bartender, cook, apprentice, salesman, marketer, blah blah a bunch of different things I've done. Suggesting that because I earn my wage by building walls that I'm somehow not intelligent enough to have figured this out & done what I have is a pretty lame attempt at discounting what someone is saying as not being fact or truthful. I am significantly more intelligent than you give me credit for, probably than I give me credit for. What's my IQ? I have no idea for I've never had a need to find out nor a desire to know. But I can tell you that everything I've been sharing here forever is 100% true and factual. It's now validated by more recent medical studies, and because they exist, I can approach experts in ASD in my home city and present my story along with the medical study to back it up so I won't be discounted as not having a clue what I'm talking about, nor passed over as having "traits of AS but too high functioning for a diagnosis," as I've said before that would be a concern of mine if I went and spoke with a Psychiatrist who specialized in ASD. (unless I dosed myself with Doxycycline & salicylate acids for a few weeks beforehand to intentionally nuke my gut flora and make my ASD go haywire.)

Aw, is someone envious that I've figured out how to live in the social world & have friends? Maybe that's where your attitude towards me comes from. Like I said before, I've never said "I made money and friends nanananananaa," I said "I made money and friends, and so can you, this is how." Big difference.

You have zero concept of what my life is like in real life if you're basing it off of your own distorted assumptions instead of what I tell you about. It doesn't change the fact that I'm very well liked & respected and have more friends than you can apparently fathom. (I say this because you said "no one has dozens of friends," when in fact, I do. Maybe you don't, but I do.)

Lol It's getting funnier and funnier that you keep making s**t up and projecting it on me and my life as if you're negative fantasies about me have any bearing in my reality. "I think.. blah blah," lol. Seriously, you're hilarious. I don't just hang out at a crowded beach, I hang out with many of my friends there. I have other (closer) friends that are not Wreckers, too, but I don't see them nearly as often because if the weather is nice I'm at the beach and they know it. Had a good text chat with my high school best friend Mark Malone today about meeting up with him and a bunch of other deafies to do the Tough Mudder in Whistler in a couple weeks - that's gonna be interesting.. my 5th one, his 3rd, his wife and friends' 1st time.

I'm not painfully lonely. I have tons of friends and family, nephews & God kids. I decline far more social & party invites than I accept because I'm still autistic and a-okay with solitude. I've been transparent about pretty much every area of my life on these forums, including the fact that I cannot ever allow myself to be in a relationship with someone else because I couldn't live with myself being an autistic burden on someone else' life with all the little things that happen beyond my control. I've learned and accept this, so, in terms of ever having a relationship or partner in life, yes, I'm lonely in that regard and always will be. But the silver lining to that is that I'm free to pursue solo pursuits to the nth degree and do things others who are tied down to relationships cannot do. Plus my sex life is better than more than 99% of peoples', so there's that as a rather nice consolation prize to not being relationship material.

That's not why I want you to come visit me and you know it, but whatever reason you want to justify it by is fine by me. Do let me know what your parents like to drink.

This is far beyond "eat healthy food, be healthier."

This is medicine. This is healing. This is reducing chemical sensitivities via cleansing the intestines and consuming the right things to heal perforated increased permeability, and then consuming the right things & putting them directly to the affected organs in order to have them function properly as the assist to the brain that they're meant to be. This is treating ASD symptoms via diet/natural medicines/supplements, not losing a few lbs of fat by eating small portions of brown rice & chicken breasts. There's a big difference, my friend.

I didn't bother to sift through all those incredibly loquacious rants. But the money you keep harping on about in thread after thread cracks me up. I have the best specialists, go to an exclusive private school and live in a beachfront house. I have a feeling your idea of big money is small potatoes to me. Also as is with those who can afford all that, I'm at social gatherings all the time. So yeah no envy.

Btw to be perfectly honest my parents think you're looney. So don't expect us over anytime soon. Sorry.

Last edited by EzraS on 04 Jun 2018, 4:02 am, edited 1 time in total.

Brown rice and chicken breasts?
Losing fat?
Don't think I mentioned those things.
I have a feeling you're addressing someone else here.

I eat black rice called "forbidden rice".

^ does it make you feel naughty?

I'm forbidden to eat rice.
Which is just as well because I hate it.

I make sure the blinds are closed.

^ I've heard that once you go black you never go back.