I still think I'll adapt better if there was another Aspie in my family, because I've never met another Aspie before and I'll like to sort of get to know how they react to things and see things, and maybe I wouldn't feel so alone. While all my cousins are out at their sociable parties, I'll be able to sit indoors with another family member who's also lonely and unaccepted, and I'll feel so much more secure in being myself. But growing up being the only Aspie in everywhere I went (school, family occasions, neighbourhood, ect) I just had to sometimes climb into the NT world, because otherwise I'll be sitting in a corner on my own, and I'm not Autistic enough to want to do that! So that's why I am finding it tough being the only Aspie.
I did have one cousin who had learning difficulties, and was quite delayed with her social abilities too, but even she had more friends than I ever did in school, and I felt jealous then because she's socially awkward and not very bright. At least I was smart enough to know a few things better than she was.
But I can't be close to her now because she's got brainwashed by a control freak peadophile (who was having sex with her when she was 14 and he was 43), and she's not allowed to see her family ever again, so I've lost her anyway. So I'm the only socially ret*d one in the family and it hurts me a lot. When my youngest cousin was born (he's 13 now), I thought to myself, ''there's a lot of history of AS in this family - maybe he might have it too.'' But no he's not, because God is doing anything to make me feel left out.
WHY ARE ALL MY COUSINS NORMAL AND I'M NOT??? GIVE ME AN ANSWER!! !! !! !! !
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