Sweetleaf wrote:
I don't usually, and if I do people don't see it because I hide......a̶n̶d̶ ̶t̶h̶i̶s̶ ̶i̶s̶ ̶s̶t̶u̶p̶i̶d̶ ̶b̶u̶t̶ ̶i̶f̶ ̶I̶ ̶a̶m̶ ̶c̶a̶u̶g̶h̶t̶ ̶I̶ ̶m̶i̶g̶h̶t̶ ̶e̶v̶e̶n̶ ̶p̶l̶a̶y̶ ̶i̶t̶ ̶o̶f̶f̶ ̶a̶s̶ ̶h̶a̶v̶i̶n̶g̶ ̶w̶a̶t̶e̶r̶y̶ ̶e̶y̶e̶s̶ ̶o̶r̶ ̶j̶u̶s̶t̶ ̶d̶e̶n̶y̶ ̶i̶t̶.̶ I don't really like to get emotional around people.
This except I'm never caught crying. I seldom cry... maybe two or three times a year and when I do I don't do it around other people at all. If someone tries to draw out an emotional side of me then I shutdown.
When I was younger the concept of eternity terrified me. I cried a lot from that. Now I don't think about it. Apeirophobia I suppose it was (is?). Other than that I don't really cry at all.
The last time I cried was because I was furious at my dad. My dad and sister made me go to a roller derby with my sister and her friends. I didn't want to go at all but it wasn't exactly optional. I brought a Rubik's cube so I would have something to do while I was there. My sister told my dad that I didn't socialize while I was there and boy was he pissed. He lectured me for 10 minutes about outward appearance or something and threatened to destroy my newest Rubik's cube. Then my mom (who understands me better than he does) made him apologize. I was just shutdown throughout all of this but after they left I cried myself to sleep.
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Do I have HFA? Nope, I've never seen a psychiatrist in my life. I'm just here to talk to you crazies. ; - )