If God had given me the choice of which model brain I wanted, before I was born, I might have selected the model that the NT's have because theirs is easier to use and leads to a more comfortable life. However, after having lived with this one for 58 years, I am glad that I have the one that I have. Long before I heard the term "Asperger Syndrome", let alone suspected that I had it, I have come to the conclusion that I like myself, even if nobody else does, and would not change who I am even if I could.
There are things I which I couild control better, like stimming or having a meltdown in public; I don't mind doing them when I am alone, but I would rather that the NT's did not see it. I would also like to have some real friends (not to mention a mate) but if it came with the price of losing the abilitity to see what the NT's don't see, it's not worth it.
Part of the reason might be that I have learned how to use this type of brain. I no longer take NT's literally (in fact, I can even take a joke) and I have learned that they are capable of sayings things that are not true without even realizing that they are doing it. I think that it has something to do with filters they have in their brains that allow them to surpress thoughts and ideas, they don't want to have, simply because they don't want them to be true. I can't do that. Many of the things I see are not pretty sights and if I could surpress them, I probably would. Thank God I can't!
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NobelCynic (on WP)
My given name is Kenneth