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My goal was to mitigate my emotions significantly, so they were easier to control. I did that. Now what I feel is peace. In some moments I feel a profound happiness. My philosophy is to tame the internal hurricane before it destroys you; to monitor your feelings and experience them voluntarily, avoiding altogether the temptation of letting them govern your actions. Indeed, emotions will always have a place in the metaphorical courts of your brain. The trick is to make sure they don't make up the entire jury.
For a year or two I thought like that. I suppressed any spontaneous emotions, because I viewed emotions as unnecessary things that make people act in stupid ways. I believe it was one of the worst ideas I ever had. I am emotional clear, and "peaceful" as you describe, but sadly even a slightly negative stimulii will screw my mind up bad, without an emotion to focus on my mind becomes full of self hating thought, it sucks. I can't "choose" to feel, apart from anger and fear, I control them.
I actually lost my emotions after watching Equilibrium. Although I don't blame the movie, it was just an Aspie trait waiting to surface.