I put a warning up a few months ago that every winter I get a bit nutty. Well, it's here. It's not really a depression, but could easily lead to one. It's finally winter, and my ADHD is in full swing. I'm sitting down right now, fidgiting to no end, and trying to get some friends together to go do something. Extreme boredom, fidgiting, and I'm overly actvie compared to my usual self. And amongst all this, my AS is hardly noticable. I suddenly have complete confidence in myself socially. I'm getting more noticed, more complimented, and I don't know how to take any of it. Popularity confuses me. How do I do it? How do I handle all this attention? PEOPLE ARE TRYING TO BE FRIENDS WITH ME! Damnit, I I don't know how to control myself anymore. The word I think of now for this situation is mania, and I don't know what to do. I have multiple people clearly flirting with me, the person I like may or may not like me (it's weird), and the people that are flirting with me might just be being friendly. I DON'T KNOW!! ! I'm externally ADHD, and internally AS. Right now I'm dealing with restlessness and extreme boredom. If there wasn't music playing right now, I'd be bouncing off the walls yelling like a little kid again. I don't know what brought all this on, but no doubt winter's messed with my head again. Although I am enjoying the sudden unlimited confidence I have, I wonder how long it'll last. I don't know what's going on anymore. I have to go crawl up in a ball and think for a while some time today before I go insane.
Edit: I just hope this Valentine's Day isn't as much as an awful failure as last year's.
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Hello.
Last edited by Sarcastic_Name on 21 Jan 2006, 3:26 pm, edited 2 times in total.
21 Jan 2006, 3:18 pm
