Maggiedoll wrote:
Yes. Lots and lots.
Never fitting in, having trouble being understood/explaining things, not doing anything as well as everyone else seemed to.
I think there's a certain extent to which most people are able to accept their own flaws because people like them anyways, but when people don't tend to like you, that rationale becomes impossible.
Same here. I've never fit in with any group during my childhood, and the feeling was unimaginable to someone never experiencing it before. During middle school I was harrass by the kids, the teachers and even the principle scolded me for things i didn't mean to do. I even explained it to them, and they just blew it off as if I was ret*d or deficient.
I have friends now, but that feeling... aaaarrgh!--sometimes you just want to go crawl in a hole since you think you'll never succeed in life; you're confidence is gone, and you think most people are out to get you.
Yeah, I still have these feelings, but it's like the same for anyone who's neurologically different like someone with ADHD, Autism, Down Syndrome, Cerebral Palsy, etc.
But there's one thing you're not--inferior. I know it's hard thinking that way, but trust me, it's the first step to believeing your adequate. Theapy can help,. but if you don't believe in yourself, then you'll think of yourself as subhuman to everyone.