Graelwyn wrote:
It was a common thing for me to be told when younger, and even now it can be at times.
I even feel selfish a lot of the time because I find it very hard to show interest in other people and their interests.
I try, obviously, to behave as if I am interested, force out comments and questions if anyone tells me something, but it is like I just cannot summon interest in other peoples' lives...there is lack of feeling there.
I don't know how common this is, but it does bother me.
Is this how every human feels? Does every human have to make themselves show interest in other people and their interests?
I have always been this way, but I notice it now more than ever.
But it always leaves me feeling I must be very self centred as I can focus on my own interests, my own problems, my own thoughts and feelings, but I find it very difficult to focus on those of others. It doesn't seem to be innate in me.
I think the interest'/our interest' leans toward objects and things and not people on a personal level per say.
I used to beat my self up on this and try to *act out the part* thinking it would eventually ingrain into me ; but the underlying instinct is absent .
I help in ways that I can, and usually it's a pratical matter with me, and Ive given money or labor or whatever to anyone that needs it.... need not be only family .
But it's been intimated ,even vocalized that *I don't share myself* because of my selfish compulsions/obssessions .