pensieve wrote:
Does anyone get this? It's my mum's latest catch phrase for me. She wants me to go out more and socialise. Why? I'm trying to but every time I have a social encounter it ends horribly. Take for example going to a wedding reception. I was all keen for it. Really told myself that I'd be ok. I was completely overloaded and didn't want to talk to people. The only good thing about that day was that my sister and her friend noticed this and made me move to a quieter spot. My sister even said I could leave if I wanted to. My mum would just yell at me.
She also wants me to go to a Star Party; where amateur astronomers get together and view the night sky together. I have a bit of performance anxiety about that.
I don't want to go out and meet new people. Why can't she just accept me the way I am?
Basically she thinks that if I think I can't do something I won't do it, which is not always true. I'm still having problems with my telescope, but I'm not giving up on it. I do go out and attempt to be social but I end up feeling even more miserable. Doesn't my mum know that social avoidance keeps me sane?
All my life I've never had an interest in people but have made a few friends, and I'm fine with that. I'm better on my own and can learn things on my own (with the help of the internet).
Should I just fake being social so she thinks I'm at least trying? Should I just remain the same? Should I become even more withdrawn (ya know, to be rebellious)?
personally remain the same person as you are
pensieve. are allowed to have hobbies and you dont have to try something new to please family if your happy doing what you enjoy nobody cant take that away like your mum or your sister. your body tells you everything