2 personas.........same mind

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does anyone else see themselves as two distinctly different people?

Excuse me for not knowing, but isn't that schizophrenia ? For me my whole life, my logic side of my brain has been arguing with my more emotional side of my brain. only problem is, the logic side, is sometimes more irrational than the emotional side.
I have a hard time sleeping most nights, because something I see or hear will bother me, and my brain will keep replaying a situation over and over and over to an unbearable amount, until it finds a solution it likes. what makes me sad though, is as soon as I wake up, the thoughts start right where they left off.

pretty much a more simple explanation would be, If i have a question, and there is no documented answer.
my brain either finds one,driving me mad in the process, or it finds a new obsession. That's the part of aspergers, if i could annihilate, I WOULD.

You are thinking dissociative disorder or multiple personality disorder. Schizophrenia doesn't have that feature usually, but a lot of people do make that mistake.

you start out as this guy then one day you switch to become a whole other person. but the other is still in your head you just dont let out

I have two different voices which argue all over again during decisions and problem solving.

you start out as this guy then one day you switch to become a whole other person. but the other is still in your head you just dont let out

i dont let him speak anymore, i was talking about this earlier and this might not have happened the way i thought it did. which opened up several cans or worms for me, just curious as to anyone else like this

Well, I have my internet self and real life self. Some sides of me that don't come out irl are shown here, I'm more confident on the internet so I have this almost witty, sarcastic and boldish me on forums and that. But irl I'm kind of boring and don't speak much when I'm at college.

I do have an other-language personality, which I consider inferior. I have managed to suppress quite effectively, although the language itself will still poison my thoughts at times. It's almost movie-worthy material, I'd say.

I don't have two distinctly different personalities, though. When attempting to think rationally, I do speak with myself, à la "Perhaps you could..." and then "Hmmm...Yes, that's a good idea." "Or maybe not.". It's like a counter-voice, seeing both sides of things.

exactly like that

I know of at least another persona I have he normally talks in an old fashion manner.

But he is more like the one person has said before, he is like a mental advisor I have.

Ugh, I wish I KNEW WHAT MY ORIGINAL PERSONA WAS. I question everything I do, everything I look at. I look for reasons why someone might be acting a certain and why I think I 'feel' a certain instinctive way about them. I question how I move and how I sit down, thinking about and watching everything around me. When I eat I have to lean over and think about something or I get really bored. It helps if I can ponder something in my head that I don't quite understand...and it's even better if it is about people. The time passes by so fast that way. I zone out a lot and try to shut my thoughts off and zen myself for a moment so that I can focus on only thinking about some task I want to understand every detail of and master.

When I interact with people I play roles for them. I have developed a basic instinct with people and my alarm system where I am able to discern when someone is upset, annoyed, or stressed, but this requires a lot of energy on my part. Each role is forced and only been created out of fear of being homeless or not being able to support myself. I have a crazy determination to survive and as long as I get enough time to sleep off the stress of a day (sometimes 10-12 hours of sleep) then I am good at dealing with people. I can kind of become an adrenaline junkie from it all...it's exciting when you get to that stress point and suddenly it's like you can do anything so fast and it doesn't matter what someone thinks of me. But that's more of a high energy, highly neurotic state for me where my emotions are displayed out of excitement instead of the normal stimulation of emotions that NTs get from one another.

All in all, this has left me feeling very confused and alone about who I am and what I am. I don't know anymore. I figure I might as well just see the world as a living organism of constantly changing puzzles. I just have to keep solving the puzzles and I'm in the clear, so to speak, and the less I care about what people think of me. But I don't know what it is I want exactly or where I want to go. But I know that I do have deep powerful emotions driving everything I do and because of them I want to be able to integrate with some people and enjoy life with them as true myself (whatever that is) instead of my neurotic deal-with-the-world self and 'to love them'. I am often moved in fiction by characters who are cold and show little emotion acting as themselves (what would be natural) with others that are able to be accepted and loved and love the other people they are a part of and protecting and experiencing life with.

Ummm...okay. That was spontaneous. I don't really want to proof-read, so you're for-warned; it's better this way anyway since it is more 'truthful' like this.

i have an angry, depressed self and a nice, calm self