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Ok, I need feedback here. I am having trouble waiting for something to come in the mail and it is causing me much anxiety. It is just a book about social skills but I want it so much and it has not come yet! Arggg! It has all these pictures on how to effectively communicate with people, it is by Jed Baker and it is a picture book on social skills for highschool and beyond. I also have other issues. I am going through intense therapy about sexual feelings and talking about all the anger that has built up within me. I am having trouble forgiving myself of any bad thoughts I had in my life and am having trouble trusting people at all. I don't have any real friends in the town I am in, though I have a great support network through couselors and work. I am also switching from pristique to wellbutren and the pristique has not done a thing but the withdrawal symptoms are awful, so now I am taking both medications along with the Klonapin. I am also having a lot of trouble sleeping, I took 12 mg of melatonin the other night and it did not help. I also got mad at the bank teller the other day because she wanted my physical address and PO box, this was a different bank than the one where everyone knows me. I then wanted to print off some things off the computer and could not find the right ink, so I bought a whole new printer with lots of ink and paper. So then I stressed out about my budget. I also tried to check out some books at the library and they said I owed $25 for a lost book. I ran back home and got the book I knew it was, and they would not take the book. So I had a public aspie meltdown where I threw the book on the floor and told them to forget it.

To recap:

I ordered a book and don't know when it will get here (at least not the exact day.)

I was and am really tired from not sleeping well and having nightmares.

I am going through intense therapy.

I am trying to switch meds

Am I pushing myself too hard by working full time and school. I have vacations lined up soon and my parents are in Africa where they are hard to reach, and I am having a difficult time reaching my family. I just want everything that I want to happen NOW NOW NOW and I don't want to WAIT WAIT WAIT

First off: one thing at a time! You have like a million questions here, so I think everybody feels too overwhelmed to answer any.


I am a huge fan of package tracking. If I ever order a book from a reseller, I'll demand that they get a tracking number under thread of leaving bad feedback. That clears up much of my anxiety. (Oh USPS, why don't you update your system to something faster than 24 hours?)


Changing medications will do that.
There's no real answer to this question that you doctor can't answer better. In the worst case scenario, know that all temporary things come to an end; this too shall pass.


This is something to be proud of. You know what you need and are getting it.


Yeah... I'm doing that too.
I've decided to slow down my return-to-finish-college over the next year, as I have more important things to do during that time. I've been doing too much at the same time, and it's not helping me.
There's nothing wrong with taking the time to do things right.


Calgon, take me away!

http://www.scribd.com
search the name of the book, it'll probably be in there and if its not just download other books on the subject that you can read while you're waiting for the book to arrive.

Apart from thinking about your meds (which may take a while to kick in and have odd side effects) it might be useful to consider a cognitive behavioural approach. Compared to traditional psychoanalytic-style therapy, CBT does not believe raking up past agonies is adaptive behaviour because the more you obsess and think about and let those things cycle round your brain the more upset or angry you feel. The 'catharsis' model (which believes you've got to Get It All Out In The Open to deal with it) may not be accurate.

I have no medical or psychiatric training. I found CBT hugely difficult to apply when I had a major depression because I could identify crazywrong thought patterns without knowing how to replace them.

But maybe it's useful for you to be aware that there are theories out there suggesting that getting all your bad feelings out in the open and talking about them intensely may not actually be helpful, because it sounds as though you're finding that very difficult.

I was on Klonapin for a while & it didn't do jack for me. I may as well be taking a placebo. I was also on Pristique briefly but I don't really remember much but I don't think it was helping me but I was on other meds as well. Meds can have a major affect on sleep but also stress can affect sleep a lot to. It sounds like your really frustrated/stressed by lots of things. You mite not be taking enough time for yourself to relax. You could be to busy & you could be trying to hard to improve things. Sense you have a vacation coming up soon & had just switched meds; I would wait to make a decision about job & school. Try to relax while your on vacation; you mite could think clearer & use that time to decide if your to busy or not, I'm not sure if you have any other kids of mental/emotional issues besides AS but I do/did & the consoling & meds wer not much help to me. I didn't start feeling better till I had quit all that for a while. Meds can have lots of side-effects that take a long time to adjust & therapy can be stressful as well. I'm not sure what you should do at the moment except try to relax some & enjoy your vacation before making any major decisions

I can always count on Wrong Planet members to give sound advice. I do tend to go away for awhile and then unload everything in one long post. I think i felt bad by the lack of response in a previous post so I took a break from Wrong Planet, and I guess I should comment on other people. I feel much better about being here now!