Today, I went to go see my physical therapist. Now, keep in mind that I have a mild case of Cerebral Palsy (CP), so that's why I see her.
Anyway, today I just had... well, one of those days. I got angry in one of my classes, because we were in groups, and they weren't paying attention to what I had to say about some computer programs. I talked to one of the teachers who ran the class, and she calmed me down (I wasn't crying or anything; just upset and angry).
Well, when I went to physical therapy, I told my therapist about what happened today as I was taking a walk on the treadmill. In the process, I told her that I think that I might have Aspergers, because of my one-set mindtrack, how I'm socially awkward, and how I always want to talk about my one of two interests with others. I also told her, briefly, about WrongPlanet.
She said that, while I'm sociable, this idea needed to be expressed if I was bothered by it. She said that alot of people might be missed, or diagnosed later in life with Aspergers or Autism. She said that it would be good to sit down with mom and talk about it.
However, I'm nervous about expressing the idea to my mom, since she has rejected the idea before. So, my therapist and I developed a code, something that would make it, somehow, seem like what we were talking about something "normal," and to communicate the idea of, "Do we want to tell mom? Yes or no?"
- If I am to bring up FLAPJACK (a cartoon that I am currently obsessed with) in front of both of them, my therapist will ask, "Was it about the new episode?" If I respond, "yes, it was," then that's the keyword to bring back mom and tell her.
- I will not bring up FLAPJACK at all if I'm not ready.
So, what do you guys think? I really want to express what I'm feeling towards my mom, but I'm not sure if she'll be accepting or not. I really hope this code thing will work, if I work up the courage...
19 May 2010, 9:33 pm
