MotownDangerPants wrote:
...but aren't, because I remain conscious when I have them and am always aware tat they have taken place.
I get VERY focused for about 45 seconds and my head stays in one place, I stop in the middle of everything I'm doing and I can't move because I'm thinking very intensely about something, but I'm not even sure what O____________O
It isn't even that something specific grabs my attention, it's like I've REALIZED something, and it consumes me completely, then it's gone. I return to what I was doing and I feel completely normal, no disorientation afterward.
I guess it's sensory overload but it's a strange way to experience it. Anyone else?
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Can identify with about 25% with what you write.
Am ADHD Inattentive (not epilepsy).
In my case, it tends to resemble a kind of temporary enthusiasm for a certain idea or word which I may tend to view temporarily as being quite descriptive (a realization). It tends to last for perhaps a minute plus. During this time I can move if I choose and even redirect my attention if I choose. I can move my head at will. I do stay on topic; I do not wonder what I am thinking about since it is a clear, definite topic: idea or word. It certainly is a kind of flash of intense focus for me.
At the same time, I am aware today that it is simply, for me, another idea or word. I do not put any sort of extra value today on such an insight/realization at all.
For all I know, it could be a microscopic drop of dopamine in my brain being released in the nucleus accumbens (so called pleasure center in the brain).
There are many kinds of epilepsies likely including something very close to flashes of intense focus that resemble absence seizures.
http://www.ilae-epilepsy.org/
What you describe may be a kind of subtle seizure or it may be something else (which does not meet the definition of a seizure and for which an epilepsy medicine may not work at all).
Words
Subtle seizures
Pseudoseizures
Paroxysmal Dyskinesias
and so on.
Possible resources
Awakenings book by Oliver Sacks
Remarkable Medicine book by Jack Dreyfus
How To (understand) book about ADHD by C. Thomas Wild
Nerves In Collision book by Walter C. Alvarez, M.D.