*droopy irisrises enters*
*is droopy either because of hot weather (doesn't like) or because of not eating much wed noon to fri noon, or because of emotional trauma, the daily humiliation/ frustration as well as a new fear that her future husband will treat her the way her mother did - she knows she sets herself up for it, being attractive and accommodating and virtually mute, thus most useful to people who want to use her as a prop*
*wants to talk about internalization - finds topic most relevant, doesn't understand why it got cut off so quickly*
I mull things over very much and the conclusions I reach about what things and people really mean are rarely the same conclusions other people reach, which I only find out on those few occasions when I share them verbally.
Mostly, what happens if I do or say something, by some strange coincidence what I said, thinking it was a correct interpretation, is understood in a very different manner to what I intended, and is considered entirely appropriate. A weird kind of social skill. It would only take a very, very small tweak of her brain for those responses to be rejected out of hand instead.
I guess I do have good language skills but - they camouflage more than they communicate, it seems. Either that, or people are too blinded by prejudice to hear me out.
And when I get upset I'm very blunt, which nobody wants to hear at all.
Oh, I have a lot to say about internalization, but if I'm going to construct good sentences they won't be relevant to my thoughts.
*shrugs and leaves*