Would you be social if you could?

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I definitely would be social if I could.

If I could take a pill to make myself more able to handle the outside world then yes I would. I am extremely lonely but I am extremely afraid of being around people,

Defintely.

As long as I could invent my own dress-code and people could accept me as I am.
It would be great if I wasn't surrounded by drunk, shallow, overly formal, stressed out and angry people.
They tend to ruin any party.
It would be fantastic if I could feel safe and not have to constantly worry about being abadoned or taken advantage of.

It would be a small gathering.
Jokes would be exchanged.
Nobody would mind if I commented on the interior design or the patterns in the carpet.

People would bond over statements such as:
"Hey look at that interesting oak panneling!"
"I saw a robin on my way in."
"The ceiling is a nice shade of turquiose."

It'd be great.

for about 10 minutes. And only if I've steeled myself up to it and have an escape route planned in advance.

Probably not.

I think I would be somewhat more social than I am now if I had the social skills I lack and if social interaction were not as tiring, but I would still be a loner. Social interaction just doesn't interest me all that much.

I think Im innerly a social person.. thing is I find it extremely hard to socialise as Im not like NTs and I also dont know what to say. I hate small talk and in groups, I seem to keep loosing tract of convo and cant follow it and even if Im managing to do so in places, i always miss the gaps in the conversation so miss getting a word in.

So I get nervous due to all of the above and its tiring to be around others for too long. (when i socialise, I like to do it over dinner so I arent forced to try to talk and that amount of time period, is usually quite enough for me so by then Im usually wanting to leave).

If others were like me and into what Im into, it would be great

yes i would.

i cannot understand the dance, the dialect. the communication occurring is something i would wish to participate in. however, i cannot.

i want to feel a fragment of what someone else is feeling so i can share that moment with them. and i cannot.

i am imprisoned inside this mind. their feelings don't break the barrier.

there is no communication i could possibly make that will compensate for this missing component, when interacting with someone.

emotion is the color coding for action. green to go, red to stop, yellow to proceed with caution.

i'm always in yellow. i don't know when going or stopping would be better. i cannot address the emotion present, the most important thing. i wasn't aware of this until my adult life, and first attempts at a full-time relationship.

I'm not very sociable because the idea of being so doesn't really mean anything to me. I have a few friends (who don't know each other), and I like to see them sometimes, but any more than one person at a time and I find it quite irksome and want to escape.

I can't imagine wanting to go out in a sparkly outfit and dance, or whatever it is people do. The idea of 'meeting new people' strikes no chords in me whatsoever.

I am social.

Sometimes yes, sometimes no. I alternate between having no desire for company at all, and desperately wishing I had friends around me.

I don't know. Maybe if socializing weren't so traumatic I would be inclined to say yes. I mean I like talking to people here. Generally however, I've been quite comfortable with my lack of friends.

I can be social if it suits me, though its often awkward, and drains me psychologically if I keep it up for long, but the bottom line is, NO - I choose to be a recluse and I'm content with that. I don't want the NT pill, no matter how glib and facile it might make me. I think a lot of younger people (teen and 20-something) with AS think they would like to be more social, but you outgrow that when you come to the stark realization that by and large, most people aren't worth knowing, much less wasting time on. They're demanding, petty, selfish, manipulative and as often as not downright stupid. There are a carefully chosen handful I care to socialize with and the rest can go rot.

That's not say I'm rude to people in general, just that I wouldn't call on them unless there's business to be conducted.